I haven't thought of you in so long;
I hope your little brother is doing okay.
He would be in high school by now right,
does he have any friends?
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I bet he took the move hard;
Going to a brand new place,
with no control with whats going on.
I hope he's doing okay.
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How are your parents?
I know your dad always hated me,
he thought I was trouble.
He always said horrible things about me.
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How's your mom?
She always tried to be friendly,
although I could tell she didn't like me.
I appreciate her for that.
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How are you doing?
Were you able to move on,
last I heard a while ago
you were still wanting me?
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All those moments we used to share,
those shadows that used to haunt me.
How do they treat you?
Does the thought of me bother you?
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You never replaced the old photos
of us all over your social media.
Why do you still keep those photos,
when I saw you with someone else?
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I don't miss you anymore,
although for the longest
being without you burned
a hole at the bottom of my heart.
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I'm glad I was able to move on,
and can now think of our good memories
without drowning in my tears.
Can you?
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I'm curious about how you are,
did you start college classes?
I know it would be no good to ask,
I know that I shouldn't ask.
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I know that it's good for me that you left.
I know that's the only way I would be here today.
I'm glad you left me,
although at the time you weren't thinking of me.
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You got bored of me
and tired of my mother's drama;
Tired of your parent's disapproval,
and how much I clung to you.
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I shouldn't be wondering how you are,
I burnt all your old love letters.
I know I don't love you anymore,
but sometimes you creep back in my head.
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It's hard to push you out,
you used to hold so much control over me.
Always getting your way and making me feel
like I was never good enough for you.
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You always wanted so much of me,
always wanted your way
and always wanted to torment me.
You evil snake, wish you were dead.
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But yet I can't help this feeling
deep inside my heart after so long.
I can't think of high school
without thinking of you.
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You were part of me for so long,
you were my first.
But you've been gone for so long,
and for that I'm glad.
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I'm glad that you never tried to reach out
when you were lonely and single.
Yes, I got with your old best friend.
I'm still with him, I'm sure you see.
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Thank you for everything,
although for the longest
I couldn't deal with the pain
of losing you.
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I probably shouldn't feel this way.
All the pain, the tears, the anger,
the laughter, the happiness
I hate you, but I thank you.
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I never want you back in my life;
I never want to see you in public.
I never want to see you in my nightmares,
or in my daydreams.
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I've moved on, no love for you
inside my heart anymore.
Is it okay for me to ask,
how are you doing?
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A/N This is about my ex boyfriend that was abusive to me for almost 2 years during school. I will not message him but is it strange that I wish that I could, like if he didn't abuse me? I miss the moments when we were friends, but I know it's a terrible idea to message him even if I wasn't in a relationship. Any advice? I haven't talked to him in almost 3 years now.
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