Radrook here to give a review. Please feel free to reject any suggestion deemed not helpful. If I offend it is not on purpose. Apologies if I do. That having been said:
Thanks for sharing this poem where the speaker expresses a desire to be many things or else is enumerating the things that he or she already is. These include being a positive influence on everyone and especially on someone referred to as [S] to whom she is perceived as being bad news all the time.
The happiness of others seems to be [no pun intended] very important to the speaker. However, there is also a non-negotiable individuality that is expressed which takes priority. Being a good daughter but still doing whatever it takes to shine. To drive around later than required by parental authority or law? To smear a clean uniform with dirt. All these seem to convey that personality characteristic.
The parts which spoke of helping others reminded me of what Jesus told his disciples, that their is more happiness in giving than there is in receiving. It also vaguely brought to mind the famous expression found in one of Shakespeare’s Hamlet. “To be or not to be. That is the question.”
http://www.artofeurope.com/shakespeare/sha8.htm
The dramatic tone and the imagery kept me interested and it separated it from prose which is a big plus.
Suggestions
Using names instead of A, D, S, would have made the poem more powerful for me.
The letters made me pause repeatedly and wonder and in that way interrupted the flow.
Perhaps the word “exemplary” should be replaced with another more readily understandable.
[white-stained]
....and remember.... [This avoids an unnecessary repetition of the word “to”. It also avoids giving the impression that a new paragraph is about to begin.
To drive A around far too late. [him, her, Joe? Mary? around]
Below is how I would have organized it.
To be a good student
and carry an “exemplary” in my backpack
at all times i leave the house.
To be the shade of blue in the evening
that soothes my best friend as we walk.
To be capturing their eyes on camera
and on last picture of D, and one last picture of A,
before leaving, [and remember] all the moments not on a lens.
To be a writer in stanza form[,]
convey how my life was impacted
by souls i’ve met, people who’ve helped[.]
I dream that maybe I’ll help others.
To be a hand that guides the way, grips a softball,
shakes as it handles a microphone stand
for the first time.
To be a good daughter,
but maintain the colors that make me shine.
To be the red bead on my bracelet
for myself, for D.
To be the silver of my car at night,
To drive A around far too late.
To be a white-uniform shirt stained
by brushing a dirty hand against the fabric,
To be the good news for S for once
instead of bad news all the time.
To have S be there all the time.
to be everything important to you,
To be the evening shades of blue, red bead,
[white-stained] uniform, silver car.
To be the blue, the red,
the white, and the silver.
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All in all a very interesting read. Looking forward to reading more of your work.
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