All I Want is to Belong

by FallenAngel97

Published April 16, 2012

In Poetry

Am I a terrible person?
If I don't believe in God
Or if I don't believe in Heaven

Am I a freak?
If I wear a lot of black
And wear out of style clothing

Am I worthless?
If I always screw things up
And can never get it right

Am I stupid?
If I get bad grades
And stumble on my words

Am I a loser?
If I don't play any sports
And prefer reading over running a mile

Am I a nobody?
If I've never kissed anyone
And I want to stay a virgin

Am I insane?
If I cut my wrists
And sometimes get suicidal

I want to believe
I want to feel loved
But most of all
I want to belong...
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kimmybee
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kimmybee commented Comment · Apr 24, 2012

Sometimes you have to find at least a single reason to be here. Even if it is to spite those you don't want you around, 'You're not getting rid of me that easy!' Let them know.
I think that there IS something out there for everyone- evn if sometimes I dont believe it when 'm too far under. And if you stick around long enough, you'll be glad you did. First love yourself and everything comes easier.
I've always enjoyed your writing, don't go anywhere.
I empathize with you on so many levels. PLEASE feel free to pm me. Anytime.

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IwillNOTbow2741
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IwillNOTbow2741 commented Comment · Apr 23, 2012

you"re not worthless, nor are you a loser, stupid, insane, a freak, or a terrible person. you are a talented, self opinionated, normal person. i too have though about suicide and i almost did it, i still do think about it some times. life is hard but you have to find the things worth living for. i'm sure there is people who care about you and would be crushed and scared for life if you died. please don't listen to what people who don't matter, listen to the people who care and will do just about anything to make sure you are okay. don"t give up because sooner or later you will be able to see the things that matter and those mean, rude, selfish, bitches won"t matter anymore.

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yubbies21 commented Comment · Apr 16, 2012

I'm sitting here crying because of this. You just reminded me of my own life. I'm a nobody and I an a freak. I'm super short, have thick, geeky glasses, and cry myself to sleep at night. Some times I wonder who I am anymore...

That's exactly how I feel. That's why I wrote this. I get bullied a lot and abused and I've had my own parents tell me to my face that I wasn't loved because I'm worthless. And I've gotten to the point of believing them...



It had a perfectly round door like a porthole, painted green, with a shiny yellow brass knob in the exact middle. The door opened on to a tube-shaped hall like a tunnel: a very comfortable tunnel without smoke, with panelled walls, and floors tiled and carpeted, provided with polished chairs, and lots and lots of pegs for hats and coats—the hobbit was fond of visitors. The tunnel wound on and on, going fairly but not quite straight into the side of the hill —The Hill, as all the people for many miles round called it—and many little round doors opened out of it, first on one side and then on another.
— JRR Tolkien