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To my worst emotions ever felt

by YourFriendQuirks08


Dear to my worst emotions,

So we meet once again, however this time it is a bit differently than our previous confrontations.

This time it will be calm ; we will keep our distance, honestly listen to each other. We won’t fight as we will consider our feelings and take a step back. Promise?? Ok then, let’s start off then. Shall we?

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How come you visit during my joyful times, or my worst days? Surely you are able to come on a steady day...a day where I am prepared to face you. You pick on me in my carefree hours, the days where I am loving life and am motivated to carry on another step, you destroy my once ‘good’ moments and turn them awfully intimidating and against my own self.

You make the places I feel at home in blood curdling...you transform them places into nightmare settings. You kill me in these dark caves just how you murder my happiness...destroy them until it’s been crushed into a million unfixable pieces.

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How come you show it to the world? It can’t be that hard to make these feelings covered...you could have designed me with great acting skills, for the fake smile that looks scarily real to drape a blanket over everything.

You treat me as if I am nothing in front of those I love most ; you cause a big, messed up scene within their jubilant times...where memories are made. You make me the center of everything, even in my loved one’s best times of their life. How could you have a heart like that? 

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Why do you make me seem like a mess? You have an odd desire for me to break down all the time, you just can’t make it quiet and private… You know how much I hate opening up to some people, so why do me like that? You force me to cry, scream, shake and panic rather publicly: I don’t know why you want to always humiliate me in front of people. Don’t you simply get that I feel embarrassed to melt down even in my friends...let alone people whom I have no idea who they are?

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 This is the last question...probably the one most painful to ask as well. Why have you suddenly come around? And for so long too. Just why? You have never had an attachment so strong before now...yet when I am: constantly seeing these perfect girls online, watching girls in my year growing up so fast, getting ready to choose my options for GCSE, making so much progress in everything that I have done, preparing for tests and facing this global pandemic you suddenly wish to visit me.

Things are so pressurizing at the moment, that doesn’t mean you have to come and so called ‘comfort’ me. It doesn’t work and you need to understand that yes it is healthy and human nature to feel happiness, sadness, disgust, fear, surprise, and anger etc, however it isn’t good for either of us for you to be just here…

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I need you to move away a meter everyday, until we are miles and miles away from one another. It isn’t helping either of us to be in this fixed position. You wouldn’t realise this, but it does really and truly hurt ; the pain is evolving every minute of every day. It adapts...to the coping mechanisms I have tried in order to prevent the overwhelming fear of you.

Please, please I beg for you to leave me, abandon me, isolate me and join someone else. I can’t do anything more and I have learnt a lesson from all my flaws that I have perceived.

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 All I ask is for you to quit this, it is quite visibly destroying me and it’s terrifying whenever you combine all this rage. I know that you hate me...but we can’t keep taking vengeance on each other like this.

Please leave and only come back in necessary times,

From me. 


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This spoke to me on such a different level. It was real, it was honest, and it was everything that I have wanted to say but never been able to. Every single word makes an impact on you and you feel it deep inside.

"This time it will be calm ; we will keep our distance, honestly listen to each other."

I don't know why but this line was it for me. It pulled me into your letter and it rendered me unable to go back. There was something hauntingly real about this; it felt like the desperate plea of someone who has had enough and just can't take anymore.

"I need you to move away a meter everyday, until we are miles and miles away from one another."

This was another line that just hit me differently. I wish I could explain it as well as you.

Over all, this was amazing and powerful. You looked the world right into the eye and you delivered something honest and raw. I only hope that you are happy now.

Stay safe!






Awe thank you! Stay safe xx



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Wow! I love this, you've spoken to me very deeply and put into words what I could not. You're not alone in these feelings, in having them show up at the worst possible time. Maybe, hopefully, someday they'll leave for good. I think you definitely scared them off with your heartfelt and no-nonsense letter. Best of luck to you on your quest!






Thank you so so much! It means a lot...I have a few people I talk to, including an amazing teacher and obviously friends.



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illy7896 says...



Hey, I totally get this, especially the bit about watching girls in your year grow up so fast and having to pick options for GCSE. I also get this feeling, but just know that you can tackle it and beat it.

Also, loved this letter, very eloquent and sincere. I think that your worst emotions should understand that they have to back off now and they'll try their hardest to keep their distance. Hope you have an amazing day tomorrow <3






Awe thank you! Take care x




Very well; I hear; I admit, but I have a voice too, and for good or evil mine is the speech that cannot be silenced.
— Joseph Conrad, Heart of Darkness