Solitude and Odium (By Lavender)

What is a monthly process that we despise?
What is a curse occluded by maternity's guise?
What reaches beyond generational trauma and cries?
What was Eve cursed with by plucking the Fruit of the Wise?

Lovie, you know what I am talking about.
It's the time of the month I want to shout
Out my lungs and heart through mouth or snout:
Yet I feel so lonely that I just rest and pout.

I submitted my paper yesterday for peer-review,
The government's thrilled and announcement's in queue,
It's been in the works for a year now, a grand reveal is due --
Yet I feel naught but gloom and doom though I know it's askew.

I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I HATE IT!
I am smart and pretty, full of glee and wit,
Yet I can't help but feel like a piece of shit
And scream in silence with a hot pack and treats.

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TheRebel2007
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Stickied · TheRebel2007 commented · Fri Apr 17, 2026 10:14 pm

Disclaimer: I am a guy and I don't experience what Lavender is experiencing in this poem, so I've tried my best to illustrate it based on conversations with the women in my life who have had difficult times dealing with it. As to why I wrote a poem about it even though it's not an issue for me personally, I just felt like it wouldn't be realistic for an anthology of poems written over a month between two lesbians not to have this as a topic in any one of them. Also, I just wanted to write it because I could. That's all, thanks.

Yours sincerely,
The Rebel

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Tikaya
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Tikaya wrote a review · Mon May 04, 2026 11:40 am

Well let's see what makes you nervous abt this one, shall we?
...the answer is apparent immediately. XD Just from your comments ^^

I think your poem reflects this pretty well, don't be so nervous. You're good.
Also nice of you to pick up a topic that's often pretty neglected, even (or maybe especially?) when women/ppl who bleed are actually successful and on top of the world.

I also really appreciate the info on where Lavender is right now, in her job in her RL :)

I am so relieved that you think so! :p

Personally, I was like: It would just be ignorant, and in fact weird, to have a month-long anthology and not either of the two female leads talk about it. Also, I am glad that you like the storyline, I didn't really know how to create a coherent storyline through two distinctly different styles of poetry but I guess it worked out?

Thanks again! Keep reading! :p



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All truly wise thoughts have been thought already thousands of times; but to make them truly ours, we must think them over again honestly, till they take root in our personal experience.
— Johann Wolfgang von Goethe