Guys Like You

Warm smiles

that are ice underneath

hands in mine

taking a hold on my heart

Digging in with sharpened nails

ripping at my every seam

but I let you in

I let you destroy me

I made the mistake of trusting you

I could see through those fake pearly whites

that too-cute chortle

that you’ve probably rehearsed a million times

I brushed it under the rug

Just like you knew

exactly what to say

at just the right time

to charm me

That’s the thing with charmers

It’s all magic and bliss

then it turns black and blue

at the drop of hat

Your stupid bottomless hat

of sweet as pie lines

that must have been reused

and recycled a thousand times over

I said I love you

You said I love you more

I said I love you most

I guess it was true

Your hands against my skin

once electric

Now if they grazed me

I would turn stone-cold

Just like your heart

Just like your soul

The way you played me

The way I fell for it

First glances on fire

You knew just the right words

You knew what would make me

weak at the knees

You got inside my head

You fucked with my emotions

Red flag number one

You seemed like a natural

You acted humble

You acted wise

You acted cute

You acted innocent enough

If only your line-up of girls knew

Red flag number two

You were always late

I wasn't important enough

to be your first priority

I was probably your last

and you have a long list,

don’t you?

Red flag number three

You didn’t introduce me to your friends

There were probably too many girls

to bring around

Too much of a risk for slip-ups

To be found out

Red flag number four

You blew me off

and what kills me the most

is that let it happen

I let you think you could have me

whenever you wanted me

I kept falling at your mercy

I let you have your way

I let you use me

Red flag number five

The excuses were endless

You were dealing with family

teetering along the edge of

probably bullshit

but possibly the truth

then the excuses pile up

and start to unravel

You were never in reach

You didn’t have service

You were sorry

You were so sorry every time

but you never changed

and you never will

Guys like you don’t change.

What confuses me?

You let me in.

It could have all been lies

maybe the entire thing

from A to Z

was all one big lie

I’ll never know

Do you really have ADD?

Is your mom really an alcoholic?

Do you have it that hard?

Or were you just trying to act like

you wanted me to know you

just to get inside my head

to see my weaknesses?

You introduced me to your grandma

not your mom

not dinner at your house

and she tried to warn me

“Anything I haven’t fixed with him- it’s your job.”

It’s not my job, if you don’t care

If you don’t care about

leaving me high and dry

leaving me wondering

And I loved you so good

I treated you like a king

Boy, I wish I hadn’t

Of course if I had only known

You didn’t deserve my kisses

You didn’t deserve my body

You didn’t deserve to lay a single finger on me

You deserve a broken heart

but if it’s not there to begin with

no one can break it

You held me so close to your heart

or so I thought

You fed me smooth lines

and your seemingly loving ways

Your little quirks

the way you must get every girl you cross paths with.

So thank you for wasting my time

for playing with my head

for ripping my heart out my chest

and throwing it over your shoulder

But I am just as much to blame

For letting you play me

For letting you in

For not seeing you

For what you truly are.

No one could ever love you

because you won’t let them

You want the control

You wanted me begging at your knees

You expected me to adore you

when you were never there for me

and you can never love anyone

because you’ll break them with your games

But my broken parts

will heal stronger where you shattered me

because I will never let you in again

I will never let you play me

You never get to touch me again

You never get to look at me with those lying,

good-for-nothing-but-trouble eyes

You will never get the love I gave you

ever again.

You don’t deserve me

You deserve to burn

and I can already see the flames

flicker at your feet

the smoke rising up

taking you away

disappearing in its heart

forever gone.