Learning something about yourself that people refuse to understand leads to loneliness. You begin to feel isolated like a solo goldfish in a jar, but there's an indescrible hunger, rioting in the pit of your stomach, to learn why you are you.
When you fear that the answers you seek will slaughter your self-worth, always remember this: you are born to be loved by your Creator, the One who thoughtfully handpicked your soul and put it in the fragile lump of miracle in your mother's womb, and whatever or whoever tries to convince you otherwise is wrong, even if it's you.
Only then will you see that being honest to yourself won't end up in despair. Day by day, you might feel like gradually dissolving into thin air, but at the same time, the essence of your existence grows stronger and thicker. Go, embark on that journey and find yourself in a stellar sky somewhere not one soul has ever seen.