Sinner

I used to remember the nights,

when you sat there, by my side,

you saw through the darkness that just lie there,

and you told me, you were fine.

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My heart is shattering like pieces,

by this silence as I sit where we used to,

the cold my hands missing your warmth,

this life just isn't the same.

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Father, please forgive me,

for I have sinned.

I killed my love, and I'm barely breathing,

please give me hope.

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An ache so deep, oh this is misery,

God, please forgive me,

my life is no longer worth it,

if my faith is no longer existent.

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I want to believe there is still beauty here,

I want to continue to move forward,

but I do not deserve your love.

I do not deserve your hope.

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They say, you're the King,

the one who can make the wind sing,

the one who forgives so easily,

yet you give me this hope I do not deserve.

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Father, you've taken my heart,

you've made something out of nothing,

but why do such a thing when

I'm just a

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s i n n e r

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Through your Holy Spirit,

I will call to you, my dearest Father,

I believe in you, I believe in your Son,

Please, God Almighty, keep me alive.

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All of this love you send me,

All this hope that fills my veins,

I'm walking these roads empty handed,

as I reach out to grasp the soul of my love.

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I do not want to die here,

I'm so tired of feeling so numb,

all these screams for help,

all these thoughts of sorrow.

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Father, please forgive me,

for I am a sinner.

I've killed my love,

and now, I have nothing else to live for.

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Crippled anger, tears that fall so quickly,

I do not want to be afraid,

but these holes in my heart only release darkness,

as her voice echos in my mind.

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I'm screaming Your name,

like a fool with his eyes closed,

all I'm really good for is the act of sin,

don't lie to me, God, you don't accept me.

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I am not your son, I am no angel,

everyone lies, nobody is perfect,

these lies are my way of truth at times,

yet you forgive me even though I'm just a

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s i n n e r