I was thinking from a long time, " Should I post this or not?" Today I finally decided to do so.
Everyone has their own journey. We all go through a lot of tests and trials. I had my own, narrating a part of them today. Making friends has not been easy for me. I have waited for around 14 years of my life and then made friends. I feel it was worth the wait. Hardly, I had any friends till grade five. Then, one day things changed, but not for good. I got my name in merit list after finals of grade five.Everyone started recognizing me and I made many friends after that.From then, a eleven year old girl thought people will love you if you are perfect. This perception went on for a long time. After a few years, I started to feel suffocated, useless, and uncared for in that environment. I didn't want to leave those people because of my fear of losing them. I was afraid to be lonely.
After this, things changed but, they became worse. In 2018, I encountered the unexpected. I was in class 10, {It is a board class in India and whole country gives a standerdized exam for subjects like English, Mathematics, Science, Social studies and my mother tongue ( Hindi) . So, for this school took various exams as a practice.} I was never good at Mathematics but I scored average every year. But what happened was not expected, I failed one of those exams which school took as a practice. It was a devastating time for me. I was stressed all the time.Eventually, I lost my friends, my confidence and, will power. I was ashamed to face anyone.
I knew a friend, but I never talked to him much. He got to know about the situations and finally, we talked over phone. I was afraid to tell anyone. He was the one who told me,' You can do it.' Eventually, I improved and did well in boards. Everyone was happy for me.
But, I got my lesson. " Make those people your friends who can hold you, love you, respect you and most importantly stand for you in your hard times." I can never forget grade 10. It has been dark, tiring, but meaningful. I saw one of my darkest time but got a gem- my friend. I am not ashamed of anything but glad that I could find my best friend after years of wait.
I will take your leave now. Thank you for reading my story. I am not sure how I performed. But, constructive criticism is always welcomed.
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