The price I must pay.

I’m losing all of you,

How can one person feel so blue?

There’s nothing more for me to do,

I care so much about all of you,

Without you; I am not the same.

I’m lost inside; let the rain pour down my face.

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My life comes crashing down,

Like a shooting star; right into your arms,

And you hold me tightly.

Telling me not to shed a tear,

And all I’m thinking is “I love you,

Yes I love you.”

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You are everywhere for me;

In my dreams, hallucinations in reality,

I close my eyes and there you are.

I can’t explain it; I don’t know how.

All I know is when you’re not there,

I get scared.

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You’re the sun when I grow cold inside;

You force me to feel,

You force me to heal…

All over, I have these scars,

“Memories of fallen stars…”

Why won’t we just go back to the sky?

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Because we are all fallen stars,

Broken inside and out,

Drowning in questions and unrealistic fears.

We need each other here,

Without each other; every day we’ll shed more tears,

But nobody else will hear…

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Every day a sigh.

I gotta wonder why,

Why we’d ever even try to say goodbye.

That would hurt worse than a knife in the eye,

It might not matter…someday I know that,

We’re all gonna die.

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I’m not afraid,

I know that it’s not permanent,

I will reach out beyond my grave.

Take your hand; as we fall,

Into darkness, we haven’t lost it all.

I want to see our faceless enemy.

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I’m going under,

Invisible like thunder,

Down I sink.

Lower, lower the casket goes,

Don’t let them drop it,

That would be horrifying.

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I can still feel this pain in the end,

It grows closer and closer,

I can feel it destroying my soul.

And I wait; and I think,

Because without my thoughts,

I would be nothing, if not pathetic.

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Please don’t leave me in this hole,

When you know I’ve always wanted to die in a corner,

Fill this hole, build up two walls, and set the casket down.

Because a corner is my home,

And without it fear will creep in,

Don’t let the fear strangle me.

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I need you more than ever,

Would you stay here, just for a while?

And if you won’t…at least make sure I’m safe,

From all the real-life monsters,

That constantly surround me.

They drown out my darkness that blocks out the light.

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Border-line, dead inside,

I don’t mind falling to pieces.

When you’re not around,

I’m breaking down.

But that’s just fine,

I will get left behind.

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Please go on,

Don’t you stop;

I’m not worth it this time.

I hate saying this but,

“You have to leave,

I don’t want you around!”

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False words, pouring out,

I feel sick…just go on,

Leave me here; I don’t mind being left behind…

I know that what I’ve done,

Has caused this and so I know this is,

The price I must pay.