Ssomething is wrong you know it is.
You get the diagnosis "Borderline personality disorder, Major depressive disorder, adjustment disorder with mixed depression and anxiety."
Depression seems to be a recurring theme.
There is a lot of stigma to BPD,
hurtful stigma,
hurtful stereotypes.
There's four sub types (Discouraged/Quiet, Impulsive, Petulant/Angry, and Self-destructive),
of course they can intertwine.
It sucks.
Nothing ever feeling permanent,
Never stable,
Never controllable.
No cure.
Only life long medication to help with certain symptoms.
Only life long therapy.
Most common diagnosis.
Least understood.
Most common misdiagnosis.
One of the most difficult to live with.
You crave the feeling of control,
of permanence.
But you're quiet,
always have been.
You react to change terribly,
neither diagnosis helps.
Yet you are self aware,
for better or for worse.
You care for others.
You are not manipulative.
You are not too much to handle.
Lifelong,
remission prone.
They say "Borderline" because it's there but its not,
regardless you have it,
It's a part of you.
Yet does not define you.
You have your diagnosis.
Yet you are not it.
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As someone who might have BPD, I absolutely loved this. Thank you <33
I'm so glad you liked it, I hope you can get a diagnosis if needed!
I hope so too
Hello, My Friend!
I hope your day/night is going well! I bumped into this poem in the Green Room and thought I'd give it a little review, hope you don't mind!
My gosh, just to start, what an amazing poem overall. This was a very rich exploration of the frustration and the struggle with mental health diagnoses and their accompanying treatment. But just as much as it seems to vent that frustration, there's an air of power in the way you talk about how these diagnoses—however many, whatever they may be—do not define you as a person, and I thought that was a beautiful thing about this poem.
*ahem* As far as a technical review goes, I don't really have much to recommend for change. I noticed HappiestPoet mentioned that some parts maybe over-explained a few things, and I do think that was a fair point. Not only was it a bit info-dumpey for a poem, but I do think it made the metric feel a bit off. But I mean, that's all I got!
As for favorite parts, ooo...I would have to go with:
This felt like it was hitting the nail on the head, for a poem about mental health. That feeling that you're not completely stable, nothing is really sticking and leaving the root untreated—I do feel like this can speak to so many different conditions, and I like that touch of relatability. It helps evoke a sense of sympathy, so even if you don't know the intricacies of BPD, you can still have some understanding of what they're going through.
This—this is a great way to end the poem, tapping into that sense of power and coming out on top, still yourself regardless of what the diagnosis was. Love that.
Overall, amazing poem, friend! Nicely done!
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Thank you for the nice review! I%u2019m so glad you loved this poem.
You're welcome!
So, a very powerful poem. Feels like a talk to oneself? It's nicely written and well formatted.
What I don't like/think that could be improved on. Is there's sometimes too much information. For example: "There's four sub types (Discouraged/Quiet, Impulsive, Petulant/Angry, and Self-destructive)," I understand that sometimes you need to properly describe something, so the reader can understand. But I feel like it's just.. too out there? Maybe spread it across the poem instead of putting it all in one line.
Overall It's a good poem, I think. Powerful, full of emotion, and a nice story to it.
(Also this is my first review so sorry if it isn't good.)
Thank you! I wrote this while I was having somewhat of a hard episode so some of it might be a little off. It is indeed talking to oneself.