sunlit car session

A/N: more ramblings from a dissociated brain during hours of uncertainty. i hope through this you can find something relatable and if not i hope you never have to. hearts to you all <3

i beg you listen as you read

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sunlit car sessions

as the moon sets and we watch the sun start to rise,
only then will i begin to realize while i'm lost in your eyes,
that our time's a disguise
and our replies
fall off of our tongues like tears from our face when we cry.

and when day turns to night, our good-byes
how they linger and
i feel like a child singing nursery rhymes to make time go by

twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder what you are
and where you've been for all this time
without your hand inside of mine

i'm not much of a believer in anything, not even myself,
but seeing you makes me wonder if there's something else.
something bigger
something greater
than this whole world combined
something deeper than any of the thoughts in my mind.

your absence is a prison, that i'd never want to go,
and if it cost me to hear every word that you spoke,
or to pay for this dream, every time i awoke,
i'd spend every last dime, until i go broke.
and should it end-

your words will carry the weight of a friend
long gone but never forgotten.
somethings are meant to end before they go rotten.

and when tears fall from your face they carry the grace of a wild animal
that's been trapped for days longing to escape, and before it's over they begin to race
and no words can erase the taste
of every bitter thing we say
and the love that we felt how slowly it fades until we replace it
with a wall built far too high in its space - but if that's the case;

if you locked me up and threw away the keys i wouldn't complain,
just don't forget about the sun when the clouds bring rain,
because even when i'm gone you'll still go about your day,
and the mess that was me will just become a stain