How am I to love,
if I only feel the pain?
How am I to smile,
if I can only cry?
How am I to laugh,
if I am so alone?
I should be able to,
but the heart break was unbareable!
I would be able to,
but it was too hard to fake it!
I could be able to,
but the thoughts of suicide destroy me!
How am I to sleep,
if my mind won't let me dream?
How am I to eat,
if my body doesn't want to?
How am I to live,
if my life isn't worth living?
I do not like this,
the nightmares are getting worse!
I can not do it anymore,
the depression is growing everyday!
I will not live in this pain,
the blade will take it all away!
How am I still alive,
when my heart has stopped beating?
How am I to breathe,
when my lungs have given out?
How am I to see,
when I am blinded by the light?
I do not understand any of this,
there is no thumping in my chest!
I can't figure this out,
there is no air moving in or out!
I won't be able to,
there is nothing but brightness now!