Hello, there! Clairia here to review!
This is gorgeous and absolutely heartbreaking. Coming to the realization that your relationship with someone is simply built off desire (whether it be sexually or not) is an extremely difficult thing to do. Your piece hit me in a way I'm unsure I can describe properly because of how strongly I understood. I had a similar revelation in regards to my father a couple of years ago in that it finally just clicked that he had no intention of maintaining a bond with me and that his intentions in themselves were simply corrupt and proved unfit for him to uphold in his role as my dad. After struggling to recover from a childhood of abuse, seeing this reminded me of the day I saw behind the manipulation and lies that he had told me and the lies that I had told to myself. I really appreciate you having the courage to put that feeling into words and doing it so beautifully.
I was especially fond of this line:
In the midst of the silence,
I taste the feeling of defeat
That has threatened to permanently sour
The threshold of our love.
The italicization of "love" really spoke to me, because it gives the impression of sarcasm. You say you "love" that person (whether it's a member of your family or your partner) but you don't feel like you're truly in love with them. The word is a safety net for your brain when that person hurts you or when you've discovered they've lied to you. "Oh, but they love me. They won't do it again." It fuels the cycle of abuse. It gives them power, and that's something you seem to understand, which I really appreciated.
In terms of critique, I honestly couldn't think of anything. I'm serious; I scanned this probably about fifty times trying to point something out, but you've done an incredible job. This was an excellent read and I cannot wait to see what else you publish.
Thank you for sharing (and happy writing!)
Clairia
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