In a flurry of darkness and stifled dread,
I am forced to barter my feelings
In exchange for your life.
While you rest eternally in a bed laced
With your quiet convictions,
I stand tall and face the retribution
That comes in the form of your absence.
I know not what it means to exist without you --
And yet, I am too familiar with the feelings of loss
I've harbored for so long.
The time you've spent by my side
Has only perpetuated my craving of forever.
As I watch you wither away,
conquered by the merciless grip of death,
I'm forced to confront the fact
That the strongest of my emotions
Was not a worthy enough sacrifice
To ensure an always
For you and I.