what do you do
when you realize
that you are the one
the one who is not wanted
amongst all the others
and they would rather that you were not there
not there, because being there annoys them
being there takes away what they already had
being there isnt convenient for what they want
they want to be happy
and dont realize how bad you are hurting
they dont realize that you have no one else
no one else understands the depth of your loneliness
maybe if they walked a mile in your shows
they wouldnt avoid you
you just feel alone
hearing their voices in the other room
but knowing thay if you went out, they would wait for you to leave
what do i need to do to make myself worthy of another persons time?
little do they know
who they see is so little of the real me
i forced myself to be here
because i dont want to start another journal entry with
"today, i stayed home"
and all i want is a reason to stay with them
but i already know they would have preffered
me to stay in my room, trapped
they were only my friends
until they met better people
who are more beautiful
and worth their time
and that hurts, because i now realize that it was all fake
or maybe it was real,
but it wasnt important to you
but it was everything to me
all i had
everything i hoped
i had already planned our friendship
and told my parents,
"she's gonna be my bestfriend!"
i guess one thing you have helped me remember
is that i am really sensitive to rejection
and now i feel like there is no one
meant for me in this world
but i dont think about that too much
because i know that it would destroy me
and take away that last reason i have to leave my room
then they talk abot how much they have struggled
and all i can think
is how is it possible for you to treat me like this
after all you have gone through
its probably because i dont open up
they dont know anything about me
or who i really am
because i force myself to be the person you want me to be
but i dont have time for this
i need to be who i need to be
and i need to be strong
because if im not strong
they wont like me
i know that none of this actually matters
but that doesnt take away the loneliness
that i can barely even feel anymore
because im too focused on comparing myself
to you
everyone likes you
everyone wants to be you and sees the light in you
i bet you text them back
i know you spend time with them
i know you go on walks and spend time together
how long did it take for you to forget me?
you must still remember me
becayuse theres no way you could avoid eye contact with a person
that many times
and change the direction you walk
and change the way you head is facing
just so you didnt need to see me
i already hate myself
i dont need any more convincing of that
and you get what i want
because youre everything that everyone wants to be
compassionate, its ironic
now youre in charge of teaching me
at least youll have to recognise that i exist
that i wanted to be your friend
that i tried so hard
you know that i have no one else
or maybe you dont even remember
because youre too busy with all of the friends
who are pretty
and worth your time
but it hurts me
to be in a situation
where i cant express any of this
because i just want you to like me
still
i guess if things dont work out for you
you can just go home to your perfect family
and i'll just rot here with loneliness
as you eventually forget me
the only guys who like me
are the ones who i know
you would laugh about
behind my back
and that shouldnt matter to me
but it does
because
it just feels like too much sometimes
to try and live up to you
and all of the perfect people
who dont care to notice me
but i just dont get it
why am i not one of you?
what did i do that made me undeserving of your time
to the point that you wont even acknowledge that i exist
anyways,
thanks for hurting me i guess
at least you inspired me to start writing poetry again
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Hi, clogs here for a review!
First of all, I think that this is something that everyone can relate to at some point in their life. It's relatable for a reason - because everyone thinks at some point that they're uniquely unlikeable or unworthy of friendship, but it's never true. Everyone can find their people, and I hope that in the month since you posted this, things have been looking up.
Okay, motivational spiel aside, let's get to the review!
This poem is very raw, unfiltered, stream-of-consciousness, and I think it's effective at conveying how suffocating and overwhelming these situations can feel. The short lines and lack of structure really made me feel like I was inside the speaker's thoughts, because it reads like my inner monologue does when I feel like this. However, I think that, as a poem, it could stand to be edited down a bit. You have a lot of very poignant lines, but they get kind of lost in the weeds. I'd like to see more of things like this
and less of things like this:
Do you see the difference? The first quoted section is descriptive without saying all that much - I can understand so much about the speaker and their state of mind just from that. The second doesn't really tell me much about the speaker, and it has overused phrases that I've seen many times before. Some editing of this poem could really enhance its most powerful moments and make it more engaging to read.
Some proofreading and spellchecking are also in order - there are several typos that I'm guessing are not intended to be part of the style, like "thay" instead of "that" and "abot" instead of "about." Easy to miss and easy to fix.
Keep up the good work!
Hello there,
I just finished reading your poem, "Thanks for Hurting Me, I Guess," and I wanted to share my thoughts with you. First of all, I appreciate your honesty and vulnerability in expressing your emotions through poetry. It takes courage to put your feelings into words and share them with others.
Your poem delves into the deep sense of loneliness and rejection you have experienced, and it's evident that these emotions have left a huge impact on you. The repetition of phrases such as "being there" and "they don't realize" effectively conveys your frustration and longing for understanding from those around you. It's a raw and relatable exploration of feeling like an outsider, unseen and unappreciated.
I can sense the conflict within you as you struggle to conform to others' expectations of who you should be. The line, "who they see is so little of the real me," encapsulates the internal battle you face between fitting in and being true to yourself. It's a poignant reminder that sometimes we feel compelled to wear masks in order to belong, even if it means suppressing our authentic selves.
Your poem also touches on the pain of seeing others move on and form new connections while you remain stuck in loneliness. The bitterness and sadness in lines like "they were only my friends until they met better people" express the deep disappointment and sense of betrayal you've experienced. It's heartbreaking to invest so much in a friendship only to realize that it wasn't reciprocated in the same way.
Despite the anguish expressed throughout the poem, I'm glad to see that writing has become an outlet for you. Poetry can be a powerful form of self-expression, and it's encouraging that you have found inspiration to start writing again. Writing can provide solace and serve as a means of processing emotions, even when it feels like no one else understands.
It's evident that you have poured your heart into these words, and they resonate with the pain and longing for acceptance that many people can relate to. Remember that your voice matters. Keep writing, and may it continue to be a source of healing and self-discovery for you.
-Rose
Thank you, Rose! I really appreciate it
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Most welcome, I hope that one day, any day, or even today, everything will be all right.