i am numb

i stare at the wall

for hours on end

i am numb This is a good power line. Try to add a thought to it. Something personal because it would provide context and improve impact.

my energy all spent This line requires context. It is personal context without "emphasis" because we know how it feels to be no energy but not what it means.

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the food sits on my plate

having been untouched

i am not hungry This line is better than the previous lines because it says something that you feel, the previous lines are images which is good, but they're undeveloped. You have negatives, not photos.

my stomach turns with disgust You wrap your poetry around an idea so well. Try putting your poetry in different lights. What I mean is: You're spinning around the idea of depression. Dive into it.

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my friends can say anything This is a good chance to dive into it: What do they say?

and i would laugh Great power line if used after a dive in.

i am not happy

this is all a mask Great line. Reminds me of Shakespeare: All the worlds a stage.

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you can ask if i’m doing good

i would tell you i’m alright

i am not ok

my eyes won’t close at night Your rhyme doesn't feel forced. That's because you have consistent flow.

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a single tear falls down my face This works as a simple image, which is good because it can have impact if you show your poetry differently. Try to have emotion through the image. Your image is sad. But not sad through itself.

but only when i’m alone This has emotion through it.

i am more than sad Please describe this more. It's a good line because it opens the doors, you could swerve and throw your reader for a loop, or you can crush us by being really depressing, there's probably others but I am not going to get into that. Great line.

but no one needs to know This line is good with the previous one and a metaphor. Link them together like this. It's a progressive idea here.

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i always have the music playing

it’s a comfort beyond measure Use a metaphor here because it would create a strong impact.

i am very scared

and i don’t feel any better

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it’s the same thing every day

just going through the motions

i am depressed

i don’t understand my emotions I know how you feel.

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the moments play in my head

like a tv show on loop

i am anxious

thoughts marching through my mind like a troop

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i let life pass by

people move on without me

i am numb

i cry for help, but no one hears my pleas

This poem is a very very relatable piece of work. All the details are so intricate and well-placed. Your poem is to-the-point. It says everything directly, and does not wander of off-point. The title itself is very catchy. You have shown everything one feels when one is depressed. We don't feel hungry, we just put up a fake smile, can't sleep at night, stare blankly at the wall, etc. All aspects are present. Overall, I liked it some of my favorite lines were
"This is all a mask"
"My eyes won't close at night."
"Thoughts marching through my mind like a troop." (Nice use of simile)
"I cry for help but no one hears my pleas."

First and Foremost, I want to say that the feelings expressed in this poem are common descriptions of symptoms of clinical depression. If you feel this way, you should know that as strange as it might seem you are not alone, and you will not feel this way forever. you have artfully captured the experience of living with a mental illness, especially with the focus of this poem. Numbness can feel all consuming at times when you are struggling with mental illness, but there WILL come a day where you will sit in the sun again, and you will FEEL.

With all of that being said, I find the structure of this poem. The short, interrupted, four line stanzas really give us insight into the depressed mind. They give us hints that the speaker in the poem feels that they are trying to feel normal, and fit within societal expectations, but can't because they are suffering. I love what you are doing here.

The only criticism I would have for this piece is the rhyming scheme. There are a couple stanzas where a slant rhyme or no rhyme at all would be a better choice. A good rule of thumb is that Rhyme should always add to the content of a piece, but never dictate it. Meaning, if there is a better word for what you are trying to say, or a word that would work better within the rhythm of the poem, you should use that word instead of rhyming.

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ps: your poems are all so wonderful and the emotions expressed are b e a u t i f u l :')

This is so beautiful, I love the rhymes and simplicity of it, it's like breaking down the pieces of your life into clear and concise words. I hope that it'll be better for you

This poem is truly moving. I felt that I could relate with many of the struggles mentioned. And I think that even if someone didn't struggle with issues such as these, you gave a vivid look into what it might be like.
My favorite lines were, "my friends can say anything/ and i would laugh/ i am not happy /this is all a mask" because often times I find myself laughing at my friends "jokes" even if they aren't funny, or are really hurtful. There is so much power behind each line, it feels like the revelation of a secret.
Some other lines I felt were extremely well written was, "a single tear falls down my face / but only when i’m alone / i am more than sad / but no one needs to know". It masterfully shows how the subject is struggling, but can't find the worth of letting others know that they might need help.
I also like the lack of capitalization. Personally it makes me think that the speaker is whispering, or isn't very sure of what they are saying, or if they should even say it at all. And I love that. I think it gives a poem another layer.
One thing I didn't really understand was the lines, "i always have the music playing / it’s a comfort beyond measure / i am very scared / and i don’t feel any better". I think I missed the message behind those words, because to me it seems out of order, and maybe unnecessary. But I don't know, things don't always have to make sense, and it's good to have a little abstract language sometimes.
Anyways, I felt waves of emotion cascading through the screen as I was reading. Maybe you relate to these feelings on some level? I think that this was written on a deeply personal level, but maybe I'm just over analyzing it...
Still, this is an astounding piece. I really don't there is much to change here. If you need someone to talk to I'm here!

<3<333 I'm always here for you, lilli. <3<333

This hit me at a personal level. Great job delivering all those emotions <3