Warning: This work has been rated 16+ for violence.
You beautiful mistake of nature
You've tried so hard all this time
All this time
Where did you go wrong wrong wrong
Do you give up?
Perhaps it's time to put down the to-do lists
You can't even remember if you've had your meds today without them
Your nightmares are about not being able to find the right aisle in the grocery store
Stuck behind the metal contraption you push and you push as you backtrack and shake from the effort
The cart is empty but you strain forward
Do you wake up?
Perhaps this world isn't much different from the dream
Your belly is empty
But it pushes you forward
Contractions of a miscarriage life
That little metal knife on the counter-
Turn on the light- somebody please-
god- turn on the light- I can't open my eyes!
The sunrise is blurry so I put on my glasses.
I push myself out of bed and over to my desk.
My knees pop and squeak as I sit down.
It is morning, so I write everything I will forget-
4. Stop- breathe and count to
5. Eat three times today
6. Smile at two strangers
7. Try again