A solemn silence hung
in the car as they drove to the woods on the outskirts of the village. Every
time they hit a bump and their cargo shifted, Ezra winced and shifted his eyes
to the rear-view mirror to check on Lillian.
Gabriel
hadn’t been able to move her from the sofa. But, to be honest, he hadn’t tried
very hard. She had this haunted look about her now. Ben’s blood was still all
over her pyjamas and it had dried black under her fingernails.
She
had just been sitting there staring at the wall. There was this emptiness in
the room like her presence didn’t fill up the space she inhabited.
Gabriel
had shaken her shoulder lightly and told her Ezra was going to get the car. She
hadn’t even registered him. Not even a blink. He could only take a few minutes
of her eerie stillness before he left the room and waited out in the hallway
for Ezra’s return. And when he did, he managed to usher her out the door –
talking to her in a soft, encouraging tone like a parent to a toddler.
A
shiver ran up the back of Gabriel’s neck as they drove through the night. He
was very aware of Lillian in the backseat, even though she was as quiet as a
ghost. Ezra was the opposite. He was just as quiet, but his silence had mass.
It was thick and tense and roiling. His inner battle was etched within the tight
lines of his face. The flex of his jaw muscle. The twitch in his eye. The
quiver in his lip.
Gabriel
frowned down at his lap, his mind wandering to what Ezra had said back in Ben’s
room. Why had he waited this long to tell Gabriel how he had really been
Turned? If he thought Gabriel would have thought less of him, he couldn’t have
been more wrong. He actually felt like he understood him so much more now. And
the respect for Ezra he pretended not to have had grown. So much so he feared
he’d struggle to hide it from now on.
Ezra
had cared for someone so much that he hadn’t been able to imagine a future
without him. In all the years they had spent together, Ezra hadn’t seemed to
connect to anyone else to that magnitude.
And
now for him to think that he was failing because he respected his and Lillian’s
relationship too much to command her against her will? Gabriel’s dead heart
ached for him. Ezra had told him that it was his job to protect the both of
them. But it wasn’t. He could have left Lillian just like Gabriel’s Maker had
left him. He was bound to her, but that bond could be severed.
And
as for Gabriel? He was just a fellow vampire he’d gotten high with one night
and decided he was worth keeping around. He didn’t owe Gabriel anything, and
yet he gave him everything.
Ezra
cared. He cared so much.
Gabriel
looked up to see that they were now surrounded by trees.
Ezra
slowed the car to a crawl and parked up on a dirt path just off a narrow lane.
He scanned the woods. “We’re here.”
Lillian stayed in the
car as Gabriel and Ezra grabbed the shovels out of the boot and started digging
into the compact earth in the light of the headlights. For once, Gabriel was
glad to have the big clunky vehicle.
With
the amount of killing Gabriel had done over the years, he was surprised that
this was the first time he was digging a grave.
Ben’s
grave.
Poor,
naïve, little Ben.
He
was genuinely upset by his death. The guy had been a bit odd; he called Lillian
cheesy pet names, and play card games against himself. But he had been
harmless, and so full of bubbly optimism. Gabriel suddenly felt guilty about
how he had chided him for his positive outlook as he dug deeper and deeper into
the earth.
This
is so fucked up.
With
their vampire speed, they dug the hole relatively quickly and soon it was time
to drag the body out of the boot and along the dirt. Ezra’s face was pinched,
his lips drawn into a grim line as the two of them released their hold of the
rug and the dead weight flopped against the packed dirt beside the grave.
Gabriel looked to the bare feet poking out of the end. They looked so white in
the glare of the headlights.
The
car door squeaked open and Lillian stepped out. New tears marred her face as she
hugged herself tightly and jogged to Ezra’s side. Ezra pulled her close and
planted a heavy kiss on her forehead.
“Do
you want to say anything?” he asked against her hair.
She
pressed her bloody knuckles to her lips and shook her head. “I’m so sorry.”
Without
another word, Gabriel bent down and rolled the body. It hit the bottom of the
grave with a definitive thud. Lillian let out a distraught mewl and pushed
herself from Ezra. He reached out to grab her but she put her arms up and
walked off into the trees. The two of them watched her pink flowery pyjama set
fade into the night.
“Aren’t
you going after her?” Gabriel asked, yanking his shovel from where he’d stabbed
it into the earth.
“She
just needs a minute. Let’s get this filled before she comes back.”
They
both got to work shovelling the loose soil over the body. Gabriel made sure to
cover Ben’s feet first so he didn’t have to keep looking at them.
“Guys?”
Lillian’s voice travelled to them through the darkness. Then she appeared,
looking like the lone survivor of a horror film. “I found something.”
Gabriel
and Ezra shared a look before dropping their shovels and following her deeper
into the woods.
The three of them
surrounded the body. Ezra toed its side with his foot; his once white socks now
black with dirt. A testament to why people shouldn’t wear sliders outside the
house. It was funny how Ezra would call Ben out for doing the same thing. But
apparently sliders and sandals were two very different things.
“So,
it seems this is a popular body-dumping spot.” Ezra frowned.
The
body was female, late teens to early twenties, dressed in jeans and a cropped
jumper. The cause of death had been by vampire judging from the gnarly chunks
missing from her middle, thighs, and neck.
Gabriel
bent down and brushed the dirt and leaves to reveal her face. Two lifeless eyes
stared fearfully up at him. He jerked back at the familiarity of them.
“It’s
Laura,” he said.
“Who?”
asked Ezra.
Gabriel
straightened. “The girl who was missing. Her mother grabbed me in the streets.
She thought I’d done something to her.”
Ezra
nodded in recollection. His brow furrowed deeper as he studied the body at
their feet. “Are you sure you didn’t do something to her?”
A
small gasp escaped Lillian.
“What?”
Gabriel was appalled. He gestured to the bloodied, violated body of the poor
girl. “You think I did this?”
“Well,
Lillian doesn’t remember killing Ben.”
“And
it seems like you’ve forgotten that only hours ago, we were attacked by a vampire
in our home.”
“Wait,
what?” Lillian shook her head, perplexed.
Ezra
waved his hand towards her dismissively, not taking his accusatory glare off
Gabriel. “It’s fine. I killed him.”
“I
didn’t do this!” Anger and fear coated Gabriel’s throat like tar. “That other
vamp probably did. Why would I? It makes no sense.”
“Why
would Lillian kill Ben?”
“They
were living together. A vampire and a human at close proximity. Throw in feelings
and passion and hunger into the mix and, like you said, it’s a disaster waiting
to happen.” He knew he was talking too fast – like a guilty person. “Same thing
happened with Becca and me.”
Ezra
blinked. “What?”
Gabriel
gulped. Whoops.
“Gabriel.”
Ezra’s tone was as firm as a grasp around the back of his neck. “What did you
do to Becca?”
“Well,
she’s not dead, if that’s what you’re thinking.” Gabriel’s whole body tensed.
He knew he was exuding defensive energy. And he was defensive. But not because
he’d killed a young girl for no reason.
“Gabriel.”
Gabriel’s
eyes clenched shut. His hands turned to fists by his side. “I bit her, okay? It
was an accident. We were in bed and things got out of hand. But as soon as I
realised what I’d done, I left. I knew I couldn’t trust myself around her. I
haven’t seen her since. I promise.”
A
heavy silence followed. All he could hear was the rustling of leaves blowing
across the dirt. Gabriel opened his eyes. Both Ezra and Lillian were looking at
the body, shoulders slumped and brows knitted together.
“That
was the first time you’d bitten her?” asked Ezra. His tone was neutral, like a
cop just gathering facts.
Gabriel
nodded. “I’d never bite her. Well…” He hugged himself. “I promised I never
would. I guess my promises don’t mean much, huh?”
“I
believe you.”
Gabriel
and Lillian looked to Ezra. He squatted, studying the mangled wounds on the
body. They knew it was a vampire attack because they knew what they looked
like, but to the untrained eye, the bites looked like the workings of a wolf.
“We’re
not this reckless. Our kind doesn’t kill like this.” He straightened and met
both their eyes. “Something’s not right here.”
The
three of them just stared down at the body. Ezra was right. Things weren’t
making sense anymore, but when Gabriel thought back to everything – biting
Becca, nearly being killed by a psycho vamp, Ben all bloody on the bed – he
felt sick to his stomach.
Ezra
stood and nodded back in the direction of Ben’s grave. “We should get back to
work.”
“We
can’t just leave her like this!” said Lillian, gesturing to the poor girl.
“We
could put her in with Ben?” Gabriel suggested.
“We
should tell someone. Let her parent’s know what happened to her. I bet they’re
distraught.”
Ezra
shook his head, holding up his hands to silence them both. “We’re not getting
involved. Her mother already thinks Gabriel killed her.” Lillian blinked in
surprise. “If we tamper with the body or tell her family, they’re bound to find
a way to make us look guilty.”
Lillian’s
lips pressed into a firm line. He was right, they both knew it. Gabriel’s brows
furrowed as he looked down at Laura’s dead eyes, the mischievous light in them
snuffed out forever.
Ezra
began walking back to where Ben was still awaiting a burial. Without another
word, Gabriel and Lillian followed.
.
.
Freshly clean from
the fourth shower of the night, Ezra towelled his hair and redressed into yet
another t-shirt and shorts combo. He sank down onto his bed, draping his
forearm over his eyes to block the streetlight that seeped through his
curtains.
What
a night.
Two
dead bodies. Or three, if he counted the dead vamp – whose remains had
completely ruined both of their sofas. All in one night. Ezra couldn’t shake
the feeling that something was happening. Something was changing. He’d had a
similar feeling right before the Moonlight raid and their kind were
exposed.
The
raid felt like a lifetime ago. The world had changed so much since then.
Vampires were on the News every night. On the front cover of almost every
newspaper. Ezra discovered that a Vampire Court was a very real thing
that not only existed but his Maker was a member of.
Ezra
thought back to the meeting with the Court and figured that when Guardian had
said the humans were coming up with a solution to make their kind more humane,
they were talking about their new diet. He wondered what Guardian made of this
change. From what Silas had told him, it was Guardian’s job to protect their
kind and now that meant just nodding along to whatever the human authorities
proposed. As angry as he was at the time, he was starting to see the logic
behind it. Humanity needed to know that vampires weren’t a threat. Which was
easier said than done. And from what Ezra had witnessed tonight, the truth was
plainly obvious. Vampires were a threat. Now more than ever.
A
knock on his bedroom door pulled him out of his thoughts. “Yeah?”
Lillian
popped her head around the door. “Hey.”
Ezra
rubbed his eyes and propped himself up onto his elbows. “Are you okay?”
“Can
I… can I stay in here with you tonight?” She closed the door behind her.
Lillian had also showered and cleaned herself up. Her hair was still wet and
hung in ashy blonde waves down to her shoulders. She had swapped her flowery
pyjamas for a pink and grey checked long-sleeved nightshirt. “I just… I don’t
want to sleep alone.”
Ezra
was lying on top of his duvet but he still pulled down the left side of it with
a smile. “Of course, hop in.”
She
tip-toed across the room, before diving into the bed and throwing the duvet
over herself and smiled sheepishly. She shuffled around until she was in a
comfortable position then peered at him from the pillow. “I know it doesn’t
really matter once I’m asleep, but I just don’t want to lie there in that bed…”
Her brows knitted, pained. “I feel so empty. I’m trying to remember what
happened but at the same time, I don’t want to.”
“Remembering
won’t bring him back. It’d only make things worse.”
She
nodded. “But it’s what I deserve. I deserve to know what I did. I shouldn’t be
saved from that. I killed him. I should know how it felt. I need to live with that.”
“Lillian,
you’ve been a vampire for twenty years and you hadn’t ended a life until
tonight.”
“You
still haven’t. Not a human.”
Ezra
dropped his head onto his pillow and gazed up at the ceiling. “No, but ending a
vampire’s life doesn’t feel any better. Even when you’re told they deserve it.
A life is a life.”
A
silence filled the room. Ezra turned to Lillian. Her eyes, shining in the
darkness, shifted from side to side the way they did when she was thinking
something over.
“Do
you really think that vampire you killed, killed that girl?” she asked.
“It
seems more than likely.”
“But
where did he come from? I thought we were the only ones here.”
“I
don’t know. I thought we were, too. Maybe he was just passing through.”
“And
he attacked you?”
“He
was at the black-eyed stage of hunger.”
Lillian
frowned. “I must have looked like that to Ben. He must have been so terrified.”
“Let’s
not think about that now and try and get some sleep.” Ezra crawled under the
duvet and a soft giggle escaped Lillian when he wrapped his arm around her and
pulled her close. She cuddled up to him and pressed her face against his chest
just like she used to.
As
he held her close, Ezra closed his eyes and felt for their bond. The last time
he had done this it was as thin as spider’s silk. Now it was strong, strands
interlaced and woven together by trauma. He sensed her on the other end of the
rope, quivering so much it sent tremors down their tie. Ezra opened himself to
her and poured out an artificial sense of ease. He wished he could gift her with
the real thing but the truth was, he was just as fragile. But she was his
progeny and she was hurting. So, he passed the makeshift calm he created for
himself down to her without a second thought.
The
tremors eased. She stilled. Content for the moment, until the façade fell free.
He
kissed her damp hair and she sighed softly. He thought back to how they used to
sleep like this, back when she still had her humanity. Her heartbeat would
quicken at their closeness. Her skin blushing under his deftly touch. Her
breath tingling his neck as she trailed kisses along his throat. Her body warm
against his.
Now
she was still and cold, like a block of marble sculptured into the form of a
forlorn woman by deftly, precise hands.
He
didn’t blame Lillian and Gabriel for giving into the allure of human
companionship. Afterall, Ezra wasn’t immune to the charm.
Playing
house was all fun and games until the bitterness of reality set in.
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