I was always told of what I could be,
it always ended up never being me.
I wish that I was honest, say that it's not fine,
but I couldn't, and my pain converted into dark wine,
connoisseurs claim that it tastes worthwhile when it ferments,
covetously crave and consume,
drink,
drain and forget what it represents.
Digging through red waters, scratching in vain, murky with peril,
I never realized that there wasn't a bottom to that barrel.
Skin will be stained, and the holes bore on the contrary won't be empty,
Body; the sugar that fills it plenty,
I dig through the rust, to make room for my grave,
to master the willful blood, dirt and dark my slave.
I became what I was always told I'd never be,
nevermore will I hold my breath for it to just be me.
Wine trying to blend seamlessly into water, I cut my skin,
colorblind from straining my eyes, I became wise for sin,
used for advice that is always taken, and never received,
whining waters that ebb and echo, be deplorable and deceived.
It is an addicting art of its own,
to mold a body and grave into my throne.
I shattered my weak bones, and tore through my sinew,
I found relief in the wine, anguish that spilled anew,
and when the greedy come crawling, eyes searching for the sky,
addicted to my wine,
believing they cry,
but in truth,
I find them dry.
I will endlessly be told of what I could be,
in the end never me, on my hands and knees, lock and key,
but I hold out, for the hope, that the art of atelophobia will set me free.
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