Fidelis
Dawn's power overtook me, so I had to extend my nap to a sleep. When I rose with the stars and moon, Allan wasn't in my arms and a blood-stained note was in my hand. Just by the scent, I knew it was Allan's blood. I unfolded the note and noticed the words were written in red ink. What the note said shattered my heart and cut me to countless pieces.
Fidelis,
Understand that, as I'm writing this, my own heart is shattering to pieces. I love you and I know that you have the same feelings, which makes this ten times harder than it should be. I'm doing this for you, for everyone's best interest.
I see the conflict going on inside your head every time I look you in the eyes. Between me and her. That's your choice. You knew it the moment you realized she was trying to court you, the moment you decided to let her stay.
I don't want such a hard decision in your hands. I don't want you to think you have to choose. I don't want that at all. I always thought that love was what made such decisions, but I now know that some love just isn't strong enough.
There was one thing I never told you. My Dad, Phillip, isn't my biological father. No, my true father had to make a similar choice after I was born. You can see what he chose.
Because I love you, I'm making this easier for the both of us. There's happiness possible between you two. If I stayed, there would be jealousy and repeats of the fight that almost happened when we first stumbled across her. I don't want the tension, the conflict. You don't deserve that.
By the time you finish reading this, I will be out of your hair and out of the way of the opportunity in front of you. We will heal, even if it takes centuries to do so, and will eventually find the peace and safety we once shared in another.
I ask you not to search me out. It will only hurt worse to have to tell you in person that I will not be returning. Maybe, given time, we could meet again and allow a friendship to mend what we lost.
You know in your heart that this is the way to go. Deep down, I know that you do. That's why I couldn't let you stop me, had to make it easier.
I hope you understand.
Your new generation,
Allan
I read the note thrice over, hoping to find a clue to where he went. There wasn't even the smallest clue at all. The note wasn't just an apology, but a farewell. He left me and I was foolish to believe he wouldn't leave even after I told him how much it would hurt me. My new generation, the second one I made in my eternal lifetime, was the first live one to leave me. I began shedding rivers of blood from my eyes as I crumbled the note in my hands. He left me. He waited until I was napping and left me with a farewell note. I wanted to find him and plead him to come home with me, but I was too broken to even leave my bed. I wept as I sat there, broken from Allan's absence.
