Fidelis
I tried to at least look alive, but it was hopeless. The further we went from the apartment, the more distance that was put between me and Allan. I closed my eyes and began recalling the night I found him. I told him he was my slave, I owned him whether he liked it or not. I gave him a place to stay, to thrive more healthily, to be cared for, and to be loved. I loved him the minute I saw him. Whenever he was asleep, I would find myself praying to the gods to let me keep him. I gave him every ounce of my heart, but now it felt like he tore my heart and left the pieces on the ground to rot. Why tell me in a note that he loved me when he didn't come back at the moment I needed him most? Did he hate me more than I love him? It just didn't feel fair that he left without at least giving me comfort when I needed him most. I took a deep breath, opening my eyes. "I don't want it to be ten years or so from now when I see him again. I still need him now." I had to confess. "When you left, I sent him a note asking him to come back and hold me. Last night was the saddest rebirthday in my eternal lifetime. I was hoping he'd come back so I wouldn't feel so broken. I want you to honest with me. Do you think...do you think he hates me enough to ignore my letter to him when I truly needed him the most?"
