(This is a work that I've been having trouble with mentally.
This poem is something that's semi-dear to my heart.
I wanted this poem to make the readers feel emotions
emotions from their own experiences and I think I tried too hard lol
Tell me what you think! ^v^~~)
S O M E T I M E S.
Lost my balance in the abyss of wonders
Creating heaven, broken down by pieces
Slowly, I retaliate from the depths within
I break, and break, free from your touch.
My heart’s still shattered,
I thought I’d never find anyone to help me build it back
I tried to build it yet its too fragile, till you came
I thought you’d help, you did, but you broke it
My thoughts are shattered everywhere
Broken dreams, Helena can you save me?
Even though a white horse can’t save me now
Maybe you can find me and bring me back?
I'm drowning in the pit of the abyss
Slowly retaliating yet I kneel in the middle of the fight
I tried to stay alive, yet it just keeps on coming
So... will you save me?
As I walk, I realise how much I wonder if anyone could spare me
Yet I wonder how much power I actually hold
So I run back into the abyss
I’m coming stronger and better than ever before
Overthinking came back
What if I was wrong? What if I was hallucinating?
Is this all real? Are you... mine?
Or is it just an illusion and I’m fooling myself?
I wandered around the darkness and fog for a while
Till I saw another traveler walk by
Turns out they were searching for me for a while
Should I come by and see what they have in mind?
Walking, I talked and talked with the nice traveler
He seemed really nice and really collected
But as time passed, I found he was the opposite of the coin
Even if he was nice and collected, is it worth the risk?
The risk was simple, yet
Might I have found the person opposite to you?
The person whom you might find irritating?
Even though that person is clearly me...
As I grew up, I liked the thought of not having an opinion
Sticking to facts, as its less problematic
But now that you’ve shown me new colours
Shall I change my perspective to something original, mine?
There must be some other person you like
Another person that you take actual interest in
For I can’t handle breaking the love I have now
So I hoped that night for you to have a lover
Yet... might I be the love that's just temporary?
Was I just a temporary replacement for you?
Am I just a pawn in a game you gave up playing long ago?
Or am I truly the love you’ll want to spend the rest of your life with...