Half a decade and nothing else mattered,
life was good, synergy was perfect and the hearts beat almost at the same frequency.
Always and forever was the goal, and the whole world could go to hell for all they care.
Never had there been something so pure, so beautiful, so incredibly surreal and absolutely magnificent.
The bloom, the glow, the joy, the smiles, the moments, the memories, the days where the good, the bad and the ugly collide but the strength of their unflinching love conquered all.
Half a decade and it felt like a lifetime. It was indeed a journey of discovery. Habits were learnt and unlearned, compromises and sacrifices were made. The greater satisfaction existed solely in the reality of the most blissful union ever.
Half a decade and nothing else mattered.
From daybreak to sunset, from night fall to dawn, they never relented. His life never really was his alone. She became his everything.
She was his confidant, his friend, his mother and sister, his wife and daughter, his laughter and bliss. He forgot know how to live alone because she was always there to fill the gap. His choice of clothes, his shoe size, his shirt and pants size, his perfume, his preferred ice cream order, his favorite cakes, his best songs, his favorite meals, and his mental health, she took care of it all.
He would love her beyond all reasonable doubt because she literally was his life. Every breath he draws, every step he takes, every milestone achieved, every little wins, every decision he ever took were all laced with impeccable confidence that all he ever needed was the perfect amount of love and support she gave, all that mattered was that she was at his corner and with that reality, he could move the world without flinching.
But..
Nothing lasts forever came to reality too soon. In the twinkle of an eye, everything changed. Always and forever was the goal, but nature had other plans.
"What a joke!" Said nature, "you two weren't made for each other, congenital circumstances have made you incompatible", he mocked!
Perhaps God's plan was different, he thought. The future looked down on them and said "don't be selfish, don't be stupid either, your hearts will break but forever is longer than half a decade".
Half a decade and nothing else mattered. Until half a decade did not matter anymore.
Life taught them that you will not always get what you want. This lesson is the saddest reality of life. The uncertainty, the weight, the absence of absolute assurance about the future, the inevitability of their separation and the mounting pressure.
Half a decade and nothing else mattered. Until the heart wrenching realization that they were destined to follow different paths. If only they had seen the future. Perhaps they would have loved less. Maybe they could have committed and sacrificed less. But then it was beautiful while it lasted. He has no regrets, because he experienced the greatest love ever after the love of Christ and his mother.
He had forgotten how to live without her. So he sunk into a dark abyss of utter confusion. He was broken and shattered. Perhaps if he buried himself in his work, all will be forgotten.. oh, he thought wrong. His heart shrunk, he floated without direction, he lost focus. He realized that he didn't know how to love himself because someone else did that for him.
And while he surfers on the inside, he goes about everyday, with a smile on his face, exhuming strength and portraying confidence. His mask is perfect, no one saw what lies beneath. He has a responsibility, he must deliver. He can't appear vulnerable, he must be strong. He can't show weakness, he must inspire those who look up to him. He can't lose focus, he must excel. So he would rather bury his feelings and act like all is well.
However, this is not the end. The struggle is daunting, the hurt is unbearable, the pain is unshakable. But this is not the end. He hopes that one day, he'll see the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel. One day he'll tell a story of how he made the right decision for both of them. One day, he'll meet one endorsed by heaven and earth, verified by nature and perfect enough. Until that day ........................
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