Here's to the "I can't do this".
Here's to the "I won't make it through this".
Here's to pink lines down your cheek.
Here's to smiling anyway.
I see you in a place you weren't supposed to know
I wish I could lift you and carry you home
I love you, I love you, I love you some more
As I betray you I smile anyway.
The clock tells me I no longer sleep
My stomach complains I no longer eat
My mind reminds me of how you are
Through the pain I smile anyway.
When I'm alone I finally cry
From the unending pain of watching you die
You can't get better but you're holding on tight
So I must learn to smile anyway.
I fear my dreams and what they'll say
Of how I'm treating you this way
I'll never be able to escape myself
And somehow I'll keep smiling anyway.
I need you to stay, I wish you would leave
If my pain worsens, yours would ease
I'd give anything for you to just be ok
And-- for you-- I'll smile anyway.