Sometimes life’s hard, you know? You just look back on your day and you’ve realized you haven’t done anything, whether you’ve tried to get things done or just sat on your bed watching Netflix, either way you feel sluggish. That’s how I feel a lot. Mostly it is me sitting on my bed, but I just wish I would have done something productive. Even though you get to wonder how your life could possibly go on this way, you make a mistake and believe there is no changing it, you hear at least once in your life one quote. There’s always tomorrow.
But is there really? If someone told me that right now I’d probably laugh in their face.
I’ve made mistakes. Mistakes I’ll never be able to repent for. I always thought there will be a tomorrow. I can always do that next week, next year, when I’m an adult. But how do I know?
We all know that we’re going to die someday. Do we actually believe it though? Practically everyone looks upon their, thinking they’ll all have long lives. They don’t live life to the fullest because they always think they’ll have their entire life of eighty, maybe ninety years to go on adventures, make emends, do everything we believe we’ll have the opportunity to do. We don’t believe we won’t have enough time until we’re on the deathbed itself.
When we finally realize the mistake we’ve made, the stupid procrastination that took us over, it makes everything that much harder. Sure some of us believe that they will be life after death, a moment where we are judged for the life we’ve lived. A time where we can learn what is right, and how to be perfect. But then it gets to the time where you can’t change your life, and that’ll be what happened.
This isn’t a lecture, I’m one hundred percent guilty of everything I have said. This is a warning. A warning not to live the way I have, and realize at the last possible second that you did wrong.
I don’t want you to end up like me. At the edge of death and no way to get out of it.
This is my story, and how I got to where I am now.