New & Improve: Rant Shop - Relocated

LOL You usually write that to others, so now when you use it I wrote it to you as if I own the place, ha ha. Don't worry I'm not kidnapping your shop.

If you want someone to talk to I'm available. (Random)

I just don't know what's up with her. I mean, I know people change, but she's just changed for the worse. She lies bout stuff that isn't worth lying about. She talks about me behind my back. And if a teacher points out that she's being disruptive or she's not focusing on studies, she'll try to look ashamed (it isn't convincing at all) and then, automatically, whoever said that is a b****. I see where she's coming from, I'd be angry, frustrated and humiliated if someone said something similar about me, but they're usually right. I just resolve to work harder. She calls them bad names.

And when she's angry at someone, she doesn't come out and tell them that she's angry at them, or try to resolve it. Instead, she goes around spreading rumors about them, and basically insulting them. How do I know? She's done it to me. A lot. She's a gossipmonger, and she just doesn't know when to stop teasing someone. My other friends will stop after a bit, but oh no, not her. She's incapable of anything but snarky comments.

She's such a drama queen, obsessed a little too much with guys as well. Especially with a particular guy in my class. He's a world-class jerk with an ego bigger than my school. They'd do well together. But she's just too obsessed with him! For example: Said guy comes up to me for help on some assignment. I help him a little until he gets it, and he goes away. She immediately pounces on me: 'What did he say? How? why? What did you say? Tell me again.' etc, etc. It's so frustratingly obvious, and she just denies it even when I ask her. Me, who used to be her best friend. What are friends for if she can't trust me to keep her obvious crush a secret?

That's not all. I haven't heard of this girl for over a month, and that was cool with me, but she called me a couple nights ago. Why, may you ask? Well, I had gone out for dinner with my family and our friends the night before that, and I happened to run into this jerk. We didn't say anything to each other, and I had the misfortune of being seated next to him. That's all she cared about. Her oh-so-precious crush that I happened to run into in this godforsaken small town, and what we said to each other (which was nothing). She's not the girl I became best friends with in 5th grade, and that too only because of a mutual friend. We used to be so happy together, but even back then, we had quite a few differences.

She's changed so much I'm surprised. And I'm also surprised that I still want such a b!tch as my friend, but we've shared too much to just let it go. I've been feeling distant from her ever since this time last year, but I hate how she excludes me sometimes. I'd exclude her from stuff, but I don't exactly have a circle of friends to exclude her from. I'm friends with the kind-of misfits as well as my best friend, three of which moved away, so that leaves me with basically one friend, more like acquaintance. I don't exactly want friends coz I have such a good one here, but it would be nice if she'd just STOP.

You see, I'm trying to avoid a confrontation with her. I'm just avoiding her for now, and I don't think she gets the message. Her mom and dad have no idea as well. I don't think they'd be nearly as friendly with us if they knew we're growing apart. But I just don't know how to outright tell her I hate her. I know she doesn't particularly like me, but I just don't know how to confront her. If I'm honest, it's also because she knows too much about me. Four years of beng besties leaves you with a lot of secrets about the other person.

Sometimes I think people want me to change. I'm on the cheer squad at school and I don't understand why I have to be someone I'm not. I don't have to wear skirts. I don't have to sit at a Certain table at lunch. I have my own friends you know! Sometimes I just wanna punch the head cheerleader (Sol) In the face because she wont shut-up about being asked out by the most awesome and charming guy in school. Who cares? School isn't just about how popular or how well-known you are. It makes me sick seeing people in halls or outside of the gym being beaten-up. And guess who innocently gets stuck in the middle of it? ME. I'm done with getting pushed around. I'm done with being someone I'm not. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done.

Where are the papers dear......-smacks your head with a frying pan-

Worked hard for it and got screwed. Now what? What! No budget/food for this week????????????????????????? Say what?!!! over 10k words for nothing!!!! What!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!