Dad

Him,

The man who brought me to this earth...

He's also the man who brings me hurt,

Father,

I love you, Can't you see?

That every time you lie, you lose a part of me

My pain, my sorrow, my fear, my stress

It all heightened when you left,

But the sad part is, when you were there,

You were still gone, no words to spare.

So all that time, I was alone

Searching for new ways to get myself stoned,

Because any feelings better then feeling alone.

Did you ever think about how I felt?

Alone on the streets?

Alone with no help?

Searching for someone to trust,

When really I could only trust myself?

And as for my brother,

You're no better!

I have to plead and beg just to get a jail letter,

You broke promise after promise, just like dad,

But you still try to convince me you're a better man.

Both of you are selfish,

You don't understand,

That while I was growing up, you were all I had.

So do you feel better now?

That I'm safe and warm?

Or do the same thoughts run through your head that ran through your head before?

Well thank God I'm strong,

I don't need your help,

You can just sit there and watch,

As I help myself out,

Grow up and go to college,

Buy my own house,

Take care of my kids,

Be a bit stressed out,

But see that's the difference between You and I,

I can deal with my stress,

I don't need weed and drugs,

To keep me content,

But know I still love you,

and you'll always be my dad,

But you sure taught me a lesson,

On how not to raise my kids,

So here's how I end it,

With a hug and a kiss,

And as I grow up,

I'll help you through this mess.