Starstruck

Journey shook her head. "I can't let you do all the work."
"Yes, you can. Go take a rest, in our new bedroom." he kissed her cheek.
"OK. Fine but don't be complaining to me tomorrow that your back hurts." Journey glared.
"Wouldn't dream of it." he laughed. "Alright I'm going to go, I'll be back in a couple of hours."
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Journey walked around the aparment condo thingie when Colt was gone. She thought about everything in here. She and Colt would hear the house echo with tiny footsteps. Journey put her hand against her stomach, she would wait for those times. Her phone vibrated, she looked at it, expecting a message from Colt it was a message from Marco.
"Meet me soon beautiful." Marco's message said.
"Marco, leave me the hell alone." Journey replied.
"Be careful Journey, you wouldn't really want your boyfriend to know what happened."
"Where?" she asked.
"The park, ten minutes from now."
"I'll be there." she left a note for Colt saying she went out for some food.

Colt got everything loaded up in the car after a few hours and drove back to the condo. He got it unloaded and found her note. He started unpacking putting everything away. He didn't know where she was eating so he decided to surprise her. But hours passed and he started to get worried. He called her cell phone and waited.


***I don't know what happened. :'(***

Journey stood and waited for a while waiting for Marco when he finally came he smiled. "I didn't think you'd ever meet me here." Marco smirked.
"Yeah, well you threaten me with a secret I really don't want spilled."
he laughed, "I understand, here try this, it'll calm you down," he handed her something rolled up he lit it.
"What is it?"
"Something to calm you down and get you high."
Journey didn't dare touch her belly, or say she couldn't because of the baby. Marco would get angry if she refused it, and he's probably hit her.
"What did you want?"
"Just to tell you, Brittney told me about the baby." he grinned.
"How do you know Brittney?" Journey asked, putting the smoke to her lips and inhailing.
"Just from around. I wanted to say congratioulations. I truely give your boyfriend five golden stars for getting in your pants and knocking you up." Marco laughed.
Journey felt a pang in her chest, he was right. Journey felt cheap and easy.
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By the time she got home, Journey was high, and she was rude and snappy when she was high, she wasn't retarded but she tried to start fights and she enjoyed making arguments. Everyone who knew her, knew when she got high.
"Journey where were you? I was getting worried." Colt said, when she opened the door.
"I left note." she said coldly.

Colt could smell the weed on her. It felt like a punch to the gut.

"It said you were going out to get something to eat. nto get high!" he said tryin to keep his voice calm.

"Oh, so now you control my life?" She laughed cruley.

"No, but you have a baby to take care of!" He replied keeping his voice steady. He felt betrayed, mostly because of who she probably got high with.

"It could be a little nicer to me." She hissed.

"Journey, I love you. Ok, but I'm not going to sit and argue with you. You should probably get some rest. I'm sleep down here tonight." He said laying on the couch and crossing his arms.

Journey laughed again, "rest, rest, rest, rest, REST!!!! What the hell do you think I am a freaking rechargable battery?! All I ever do is SLEEP! REST! Damn, Colt the last thing I need is to be ordered around. I know what I'm doing!" Journey yelled, she was angry, well more likely not herself.
"Doesn't seem like it from where's I'm standing." he said.
"Then sit down!" Journey yelled.

Colt laughed. "Your so high, Journey, I can't believe this. Come on, i thought you gave that up!"

"Guess you dont' know me." She hissed. He felt like she'd punched him.

"I guess I don't." he replied getting up. "I thought I did. But the Journey I knew, she wouldn't endanger our child for a buzz. Journey, I love you. But I don't know hwat to think."

Journey rolled her eyes. "Oh, please. You act like you care oh so much, it would bring tears to my eyes and yet, it doesn't. You know why? Because it's bull, all of it." Journey was fighting with herself and taking it all out on Colt and their baby.
He turned completely pale and just stood there. "I know your high Journey but I can't believe you just said that." he said, glaring.
"You know what I don't need this," Journey started walking to the rooms and grabbing her things.

Colt stood outside the bedroom feeling like he'd been run over by a train. "Wait until your sober before you do this, pelase." He said softly.

"NO!" She hissed. "I'm tired of this. I can't stand you."

"Where are you going?" He asked.

"I dont know, maybe Marcos." She replied. Colt felt like he'd been punched hard.

"Babe, please just sleep on it." He said softly.

"Don't call me that!" She hissed.

"Fine, leave, ok, do whatever you want. I'll still be here though.' he said stepping out of her way she she shoved his chest. "Please don't go!"

"Why, so you can get in my pants when I have the kid?" She hissed. "That's all you want!"

"What!" He gasped. "That's not true and you know it!"

She shoved at his chest again and again. "The hell it's not!" she shouted.
"Journey, stop it! Would you stop it." he caught both of her wrists. "Journey, your not thinking straight, God knows what your doing to the baby right now."
"Don't use the baby by trying to keep up together. Don't you dare!" she shouted.

Colt shook his head. "I don't want in your pants, Journey, or I'd have tried talkin you into an abortion. I love you! Ok, is that so hard to grasp?" He asked.

"You don't love me!" She hissed.

"Yes I do, and i don' tknow how to prove it. But you know, I don't know why I'm arguing with you. Your high!"

"Yeah, that's right. I'm HIGH!!! And guess what?! I'm finally adimting things I couldn't have said if I weren't high I wouldn't have the guts."
"I love you, Journey. Your high and you don't seem to know what your doing." Colt said.
"Well, first off, I'm trying to get away from you, second, I'm looking for a place to crash. Yeah, I still think I know what I'm doing." When Journey finally got past him, she barely got to the door when the baby kicked. "Ow." she whispered, placing a hand over the baby.

Colt looked down at her worridly. "You ok?" He asked.

"Fine, just the stupid baby." She hissed back.

"Please don't go." he begged, "Please!"

Journey looked at him. "See? You don't love me, you really care about the baby. You still think I tried to trick you, like your skanky girlfriend before, when I was just as scared as you."
"Journey, I wasn't angry about the baby. I was just a little caught off guard, that's all."
She was about to say something witty, when she passed out...

**you can have it just be morning and he's already lecturing her**

Colt carried her up to the bed and alid her down then went downstairs and passed out on the couch.

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"It wasn't all a bad dream." Journey groaned when she walked down the stairs.

"No.' He replied as he made breakfast. He still felt betrayed and hurt.

"What all happened and what was a dream?" She asked.

"Let me see, anything and everything negative that you could possibly remember from last night was real." He replied not looking up at her.

Journey, felt like shit, her body felt defeat. She was way too weak to even stand up, she crawled on her hands and knees to get to the bathroom to throw up. She layed on the bathroom floor curled up in a ball. Colt came in and stood over her, Journey could see the pain in his eyes.
"I'm sorry, OK? I don't know how mayn times I have to say it."
"That was only the first time. Why Journey, how could you do that to yourself? To me? To the baby?"
"I don't know. I was with Marco last night."
Colt took a step back. "That just mkaes everything worse, why the hell were you with Marco when I told you to stay away from him. Hell, I shouldn't even have to tell you, you should know."
Journey opened the toliet seat to throw up again. Her belly brushed against the pocelin, and Journey's hand went down to press protectively against it.

**Goodnight, hon**