i wonder what you’d say if i told you
i’ve had dreams about us.
would you laugh?
smile, for knowing this would be the result
of the damage you caused?
(i think you’d stay silent)
when you were gone,
i wasn’t the one left in tears
i was left with a feeling of freedom
of knowing you couldn’t touch me again
and could never come back.
(i learned freedom is finite)
but then you showed up behind my eyes,
chasing me down with a knife in your hand
and it hurt everytime you stabbed me,
everytime you opened your mouth and all that came out
was a bloody mess of mangled love and lies.
(i never stopped bleeding)
so on the day i saw you again,
my blood ran cold
and i stopped in the center of the hallway,
it seemed like i was the earth again and everything
was revolving around you you you.
(my earth shattered when you left)
and you tried to say hello as if you were the sun
but all i could think about was the darkness you brought
so i stayed silent and walked away,
you got the picture and let me be,
realizing you couldn’t touch me again.
(not now not ever)
we act like we are nothing to each other,
and i can’t catch any of your sly glances,
even though i wish i could,
because you hurt me so so much
and i don’t even think you know.
(i didn’t even know)
now it seems you’re no longer the sun,
simply a distant star in which
i can no longer reach,
such a distance will never seem
far enough away from you.
(but you’ll never be the sun again)