Renan Ken - The Life I've Lived.

Renan Ken, you look my way
I see a light, so far away
A shining light that you have made
A light that lures me farther astray

Renan Ken, the day begins
The dawn had broken about me
My eyes are open, now I see
I know now nothing of thee

Renan Ken, my time’s begun
About me shines the flaming sun
A fire all see, deep inside me
The fire of my faith in ye

Renan Ken, the sun is up
Brimming in me is life’s cup
A cup of freedom, with a hint of lime
A hint that has stayed for all time

But bittersweet is my life now
I feel a doubt upon my brow
Are you there?
And if you are, then where, oh where?

A wall is growing, covered in vines
From it comes a subtle rhyme
A sound that draws me deeper in
Into a life only formed by men

Oh, Renan Ken, now the sun is heightening
I see it now, fringed with lightening
I feel lost inside a hopeless maze
Stumbling about in a frantic daze

I search for something I deny
Something for which I hopelessly cry
None know of mine inner strife
But on my own you show me, true life

But still I close my eyes from truth
I look instead up to the roof
Screaming for something that lies there
Waiting in the very air

Renan Ken, the day’s half gone
The sand I live on’s moving on
I feel my life fall all about me
But still I force myself not to see

But in the end, we all do know
That whatever we do, the truth shall show
Run and hide, but it will find you
And crush your denial with an iron shoe

Dear Renan Ken, the sun is falling
The fear within me’s now so galling
My heart now wants to come back to you
I feel that ivy wall crack in two

Renan Ken, please help me now
A thousand sins lie on my brow
And yea, again, a thousand more
But I know I may still find your welcoming door

I lived my life, I hated you
But as the sun falls, my defenses do too
I am now open, a bleeding wound
For you to heal as I croon

I know that all that I must do
Is put my utter trust in you
For as the sun began to rise
I saw your light reflected in my eyes

And now that the sun falls at last
Your face returns to me aghast
‘My child what is it you have done?
You ran from me, but here you come’

I repent, I know that now
Better live a good life of lies
Than die a hopeless, heap of flies
For chance brings nothing when one dies

In denial I have lived
I now lay here, a loaf that’s leavened
Purged and cleansed
With hope inside me shining through a mirrored lens

Renan Ken, as the sun falls
Is it twilight that I see?
Or is it a new dawn, granted unto me!
But one that has no final day

Better for me to live that life
Even if it be a lie!
Than to live one in which I must die
To live one that makes me cry

Oh Renan Ken, I am here now
With arms wide you await me
First I bow
But I now know, that friends we be
That you are not my enemy....