Of Loss and Love: chapter seven
Love is a friend, a fire, a heaven, a hell, where pleasure, pain, and sad repentance dwell
[Richard Barnfield]
I lashed out at a nearby side table in fury. The sounds of laughter and music coming from the banquet hall reached my ears, but I was unable to blink or move. My entire body was shaking and tears ran down my cheeks as I recalled the last conversation that I had had with my uncle.
A simple marriage I had told him, uncomplicated, and this hell was what he had given me.
“Madam,” said Lady Millicent softly, “the Duke of Unis is here to see you.”
I quickly wiped away my tears and turned away from the window just in time to see Tristan enter my chambers.
“You may leave,” I told Lady Millicent.
She immediately curtseyed and left the room.
Tristan awkwardly cleared his throat. “His majesty had called you to his study. Why did you not come?”
I said nothing.
“He asks that you now join him down at the banquet,” he continued.
“I will not.”
Tristan looked back at me, his eyebrows slightly raised. “But, My Lady, he’s the King!”
“And I am a human being!” I shouted, my voice shaking. “I can only take so much! Since my arrival here I have been confined to my chambers like some sort of animal in a cage, constantly looked down upon, ignored by my own husband who now threatens to replace me, all because I have not yet given him an heir! Do you have any idea what that feels like?”
Tristan stared at me for several seconds in shock. “H-how did you know?” he finally asked, with a look of utmost concern.
I did not answer him.
Tristan sighed heavily. “Rose...believe me, I know how difficult this must be for you-”
“Oh, do you?” I interrupted, giving a dry laugh.
“Yes,” he continued. “Two years ago, my younger sister, Evangeline, was married to King Seamus of Balvar. He too needed to provide his Kingdom with a legitimate heir to the throne, and so he pressured my sister for one. A year later, Evangeline died in child birth, and so did the son she had been carrying.”
I did not know what to say. He too had lost family...
“Please do not make the mistake of thinking that I don’t know what you’re going through, because I do.” he slowly moved closer to me, until only an inch separated us. “And it kills me to see that just as I was unable to assist my sister, I’m unable to assist you.”
For a while there was silence in the chamber, only to be interrupted by the occasional crackling coming from the fireplace. Tristan looked at me with great intensity, and so did I, momentarily losing myself in his warm and kind green eyes. I felt my heart race inside, my stomach tingle, and my intake of breath becoming quicker and shorter...
Then he slowly inclining his head forwards, until I could smell the musk on his clothes, until I could feel the warmth of his breath on my skin, and I found that, try as I might, I could not move away. I closed my eyes as his soft lips met mine and as the kiss we began to share grew deeper, I began to realise that I did not wish it to stop. In those sweet blissful moments I finally realised the meaning of passion, the meaning of true love...
Then reality hit me like a dagger to the heart and I quickly pulled away, a single tear trickling down my cheek as I realised what I had just let happen.
I placed a hand over my mouth in shock. “Wh-what have I done..?”
Tristan looked absolutely devastated, but before he could do or say anything else, there came a loud knock at the door.
“Come in...” I managed to say, my voice shaking slightly in fear as I quickly turned away from Tristan.
Lord Wotton strolled inside my chambers and my heart began to race once more. I desperately tried to compose myself before turning to face him, watching anxiously as he bowed respectfully towards me before his eyes moved to Tristan, his mouth curving into the same conniving grin that I had seen on him just a few nights ago. "Your Grace, surely it does not take one fifteen minutes to give Lady Rose a simple message from the King?”
There seemed to be quite a knowing look in his eyes as he asked the question. I felt sick. Surely he couldn’t know...
I watched anxiously as he took one step closer to Tristan. “Why don’t you head back down to the banquet? The King has once again asked that I now handle it from here.”
Tristan’s body tensed and his lip curled in anger. He stared at Lord Wotton with eyes full of rage before he too took a step closer.
“I tell you this here and now, Wotton,” he said quietly, projecting every word with deep venom. “Do not mistake my silence for cowardice. You may enjoy His Majesty’s trust for now, but I know your true intentions, and I promise you that I won’t rest until your head is put on a platter and fed to the dogs.”
The smug expression on Lord Wotton’s face instantly disappeared and Tristan gave me one brief guilty glance before walking out of my chambers.
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I had been feeling incredibly sick throughout the morning and it was with great difficulty that I ate my meals and went about my daily duties. It had been several days since the incident with Tristan and no matter how much I tried to avoid him, the memory of what had happened between us continued to haunt me. In a single moment of passion and weakness I had committed a grave sin, an act of treason, and remembering the punishment for it made my stomach turn.
My every day passed in fear and panic. To make matters worse, despite the fact that Frederick had began to regularly visit my bedchambers again, to his utter frustration I was still not yet with child, causing his anger towards me to reach epic proportions.
At court that night I could not help but notice the amount of whispering going on all around me. Maids of the court gathered together in small circles exchanging whispers with one another while glancing back at me occasionally before continuing again. Seeing them made my neck burn. I turned to face Lady Millicent who looked on at the scenes with absolute disgust.
“What are they all whispering about?” I asked her.
Lady Millicent struggled for several seconds and avoided any eye contact. “Oh, my Lady, it’s n-nothing, really...”
I looked at her desperately. “You are the closest companion I have here, Lady Millicent, I beg you, please tell me.”
She looked up at me suddenly, touched by what I had said, before fidgeting with the hem of her dress and nervously saying, “There are r-rumours that...His Majesty has recently taken to seeking solace in a-”
“In a what...?” I could hear blood pounding in my ears.
“In a...mistress...”
“What?” I breathed, in disbelief.
In an instant the whispering around me seemed to grow louder and more sinister. Lady Millicent attempted to comfort me but I could not hear her words, nor could I feel her hand on my shoulder. All I could hear was the sound of my own heavy breath.
I immediately stood from my seat and charged out of the Great Hall, past the prying eyes of the court members, my heart pounding inside my chest as I emerged out into the hallway. Tristan, who had been standing guard beside the doors to the hall, immediately ran after me upon seeing me ascend the staircase.
“Rose,” he said, attempting to catch up with me, “Stop!”
I ignored him and carried on walking up the stairs. I suddenly felt his hand grab my wrist. I turned to face him with a look of outrage.
“I’m sorry,” he said, immediately letting go.
I ignored his apology and continued to advance ahead before reaching the first floor landing. I had no idea what I was doing; all I knew was that I needed to see Frederick immediately.
My entire body began to shake as I headed towards his private quarters. Halfway there, Tristan advanced forwards and came in front of me, stopping me dead in my tracks.
“Get out of my way,” I said, my voice shaking along with my body.
“I...I can’t,” he said.
“Why not?” I demanded.
My heart sank to the depths of my stomach as the answer soon appeared before me. In disbelief I watched as a ginger haired palace maid suddenly stumbled out of Frederick’s chambers. She was half-dressed and bore a look of absolute horror on her face as she saw me, her eyes full of guilt and mine full of pain. I watched her run away yet still I refused to believe. I thought my eyes had deceived me, that I was dreaming, but the look upon Tristan’s face soon made me come to my senses. My entire body felt numb and the last thing I felt was a hot tear slowly trickle down my cheek before everything went dark.
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links to other chapters
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic53716.html (chapter 1)
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic53746.html (chapter 2)
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic53800.html (chapter 3)
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic53888.html (chapter 4)
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic54024.html (chapter 5)
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic54589.html (chapter 6)
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/post644335.html (chapter 8.
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/post652505.html (chapter 9.
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic59246.html (chapter 10.
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