Of Loss and Love: chapter one
Love is a friend, a fire, a heaven, a hell, where pleasure, pain, and sad repentance dwell
[Richard Barnfield]
The Elders of the Eastern Realms would say that when a parent passes away, their children can often sense it. On the day of my father’s passing that very sense was enough to wake me from a sleep that was similar to death itself.
Perhaps my feelings were entirely imaginary, a nightmare even, for I had been having plenty of them since my father had first become ill. With that thought in mind I lay still upon the silken sheets, hoping with all my heart that what my heart was telling me was a lie. Unfortunately, I was to be bitterly disappointed.
The deafening sounds of the castle's warning bells echoed throughout the Old City, followed swiftly by the sounds of echoing footsteps towards my quarters. Several seconds passed before a dark shadow appeared from behind my chamber door.
“My Lady...” breathed Nan as she entered my chambers. “The King-”
It was then that I knew. My father was dead.
Nan continued devastatingly, “I’m so sorry...”
My reaction was instant. “No...” I said, my voice barely a whisper as hot tears trickled down my cheeks. Suddenly my chamber walls began to feel as though they were closing in on me, my breath started to feel short and heavy...
With great force I pushed back the bed sheets that covered me and desperately ran out of my quarters.
I could hear Nan calling after me, running to catch up in order to so console me but I did not dare stop. I needed to see my father, I needed to see that he was truly gone for myself. Hurriedly, I ran down the cold stone steps and sprinted across the torch-lit courtyard.
Servants crowded around in large groups outside the steps to the Northern Tower, weeping uncontrollably as news spread throughout the castle. Several looked up at me upon my arrival, throwing me looks of pity. I pushed past them and ascended the Tower’s steep spiral staircase. Their tears did not matter to me, and neither did their grief.
Nothing mattered anymore.
As I emerged onto the landing, I could hear the hushed voices of Uncle Maurice and his crooked-nosed advisor Lord Sébastian.
“...perhaps we should wait a while...otherwise people may grow suspicious,” spoke Uncle Maurice quietly.
“We cannot afford to wait, Sire!” Lord Sébastian replied. “King Théodore has no heir to the throne and no son to continue with the succession. We must immediately press ahead with the declaration of your legitimate ascension to the throne-”
“Ah, Princess Rosaline...” Uncle Maurice suddenly caught sight of me and cleared his throat nervously before bowing in my direction.
“Princess,” said Lord Sébastian, also bowing solemnly.
I stared at Lord Sébastian coldly. His sombre expression could not mask his true feelings at the news of my father’s demise. I knew all too well that he could not have been happier by the event. My father’s hatred for corruption, greed, and immorality, as well as his opposition to political and religious reformation made him an enemy among pro-reformist nobles such as Lord Sébastian.
“Where is my father?” I asked my uncle desperately. “I want to see him...”
Lord Sébastian looked hesitant. “My Lady, I don’t think that would be-”
“I AM THE PRINCESS OF ASINYA, YOU WILL ALLOW ME TO SEE HIM!” I yelled, staring venomously into his eyes.
“Very well,” he nodded before stepping aside.
My hands trembled as I walked through the heavy wooden doors into my father’s bedchamber. A cold sensation gripped me as I stepped inside. The large circular room was dimly lit by candle-light and the air carried a sickly sweet smell that made my hair stand on end. Several court-physicians were still glaring over my father, whilst the Chapel Priests flicked rose water onto his body and muttered prayers of salvation from the Holy Scroll. Upon my arrival, they stood from their seats and bowed.
“Wh...what happened to him?” I asked them, my voice shaking. I had known that my father had been feeling poorly for a while now, but never had it ever been declared as life-threatening in any way.
The court-physicians swapped glances with one another.
“My Lady,” replied one, “he-”
“Please give the Princess a moment alone with her father,” Uncle Maurice’s voice came suddenly from behind me.
The court-physicians and Priests immediately turned away from me and obediently stepped out of the chamber, followed closely by Uncle Maurice who closed the doors behind them.
I turned away from the door and, with the little courage that remained inside me, I faced my father’s bed. Wrapped in green velvet, embroidered with golden needle work was my father’s body. He looked paler than ever before, his cheeks were hollowed and there were large dark circles around his eyes. It was clear that the years of leadership had taken a toll on his body. Now he could finally rest - now he could finally be with my mother.
Suddenly, the realisation of my situation hit me like a dagger to my heart. As I looked down at my father’s lifeless body the dreadful truth swept over me. My every limb began to feel numb at the thought of what his death meant. At just seventeen years old, I would become an orphan, and as a woman I would be at the mercy and care of my father’s enemies.
I placed my head over my father’s chest and wept tears of such anguish I thought that my heart would bleed with pain. “Father...” I sobbed into his chest. “I beg you...please don’t leave me...”
Suddenly the chamber doors burst open and Nan ran in towards me, her face tear-stained as she began to pull me away.
“Please, my Lady...” she sniffed, wiping away my tears with her hands and pulling me into an embrace, cradling me in her arms. “You must stop...”
“I am all alone, Nan...” I wept. “I am all alone...”
“You are not alone, my Lady,” Nan said firmly, holding my face. “You have me...I promise you...I shall always be here for you...always...” she wiped away the remaining tears from my face before giving me a reassuring smile. “Come now, let us say goodbye to your father.”
I closed my eyes for several seconds in an attempt to muster up enough courage before gently taking my father's cold hand. As I did so, childhood memories suddenly swept through my mind like waves from an ocean. I suddenly remembered how, every night after supper, my father would dance with me in the ballroom whilst my mother played the piano. I suddenly remembered how he and Nan would playfully chase me around the castle gardens whenever I refused to take my night baths. And my fondest memory of all, was when my father would lie in bed with me at night and tell me wonderful tales of brave and beautiful princesses whom he would name after my mother and me.
The memories were still fresh in my mind as though they had happened only yesterday, and I would treasure each one of them as though they were precious pearls, for those brief but happy moments were the only thing I had left in this world that would bring me comfort in the long, lonely and uncertain future that lay ahead of me.
With one final kiss to my father's cold forehead, I spoke to him for the last time, “Goodbye father."
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links to other chapters
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic53746.html (chapter 2)
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic53800.html (chapter 3)
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic53888.html (chapter 4)
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic54024.html (chapter 5)
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic54589.html (chapter 6)
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic55095.html (chapter 7)
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/post644335.html (chapter 8.
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/post652505.html (chapter 9.
http://www.youngwriterssociety.com/topic59246.html (chapter 10.
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