GUYSSSSS. This post is super-important, just so you know.
Lacey Lopez
I walk out of the school, feeling the winter sunshine on my face and feeling beautiful for the first time in a long time. Violin case in hand, I walk over from the school to the library. The librarian, a cute old lady who I was very familiar with in my younger years, murmurs a greeting. I smile back. I have to be to work in an hour, but I've done so much practicing lately my fingers are starting to get bruises, so I figured I'd spend some time college searching here or something.
I make my way to the teen section, but something stops me. A girl, huddled up in one of the chairs. It would take a trained eye to see it, but I spot it right away.
"You okay?"
She looks up surprised. "No. Not really."
She goes to my school, but I don't know her name. I smile and take a seat next to her. "I'm Lacey Lopez."
"Amy Jenkins."
"You're scared, aren't you?"
She looks at me, and I think I see that familiar rebellion in her eyes, but it deflates. "You know. Are rumors spreading that quickly?"
"No. I can see it. Not really in your stomach, but in your eyes."
Amy looks down at herself. We're both talking in whispers. "It was a mistake. We never meant to... never meant for this to happen. He thinks I should get rid of it now, but he said he'd support me even if I didn't... God, yes, I'm so scared."
"Know that it's your choice, Amy. You'll feel empty if you get rid of it. You're mothering instincts are already coming out, and it's apart of you. An abortion will take more than the fetus; it'll take another part of you. If you keep it, it'll be hard, hard on everything, but it'll still be what you dreamed of; just dreamed of for later. Just don't waste your potential, that's the biggest thing; never forget who you are. Change, because you'll need to, but make your loves part of your new life; it's your only choice."
"That's the best advice anyone's given to me yet." She pauses. "Do you have a kid?"
I consider telling her the whole thing was a mistake, but I can't bring myself to say it. "Miscarriage."
"Oh." Amy swallows. "Thank you, Lacey."
I smile, standing up, trying not to let her see my tears.
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When I get home, I check the mailbox, just as I have been for the past few weeks. This time, there's the fancy letter that I've been waiting for, with my name inscribed on the front. I rip it open, unable to wait. The text says exactly what I wanted it to;
Congratulations, Lacey Lopez, you've been accepted!
I rush into the house. "WHAT IS THIS LIFE?"
My Mother looks at me, eyebrow raised. "Did you really just quote The Fault In Our Stars?" My Mother has read the book, of course, being that she is awesome.
Emmett looks up from his tablet. He's rewatching Doctor Who episodes he's forgotten, to 'help him with his memory loss', though I know its for Jane. "You got accepted."
"Yes! I'm so excited!"
"I'm proud of you, honey. You've got a lot of work to do, catching up, but that's great. Did you get the scholarship?"
"Yep!"
My Mom seems to relax. "Well, it's official! You can kiss Harmony High goodbye and go to Lake of Pines Fine Arts School!"
"Yeah, Lacey." Emmett mutters.
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The first thing I do when my transcripts are in order is visit Jane.
In lieu of hello I tell her, "I need you to take care of Emmett."
She looks annoyed. "Hi to you too. What do you think I've been doing?"
"I'm going to the Fine Arts school in Pine Lake; that's an hour away, and I'll be rooming on campus. I won't be able to be here for him. I feel guilty, but I need to do something for myself, and this is the only time to do it. I need you to do something for him, now that I won't be there."
"You're leaving? What about the baby?"
"No longer suffering from existence. Do you promise me Jane, do you promise?"
She thinks about it. "He doesn't even know me."
"I do, and I'm trusting you, despite knowing how fucked up you can be. I'm trusting you because you love him."
"Okay. Okay, I can do it."
I hug her, much to her surprise. I don't always like Jane, and I've never really forgiven her for the way she handled her pregnancy. But I love how she loves Emmett, and I think they can fix each other.
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A few days later, I'm throwing my bags in the back of the car. We have new semester introduction in about five hours, and I need to unpack my bags and meet my roommates before that.
Ace is at my house, and she hugs me a tight goodbye. "I hate you for this," she whispers, "but you deserve this."
"I'll miss you."
"Yeah. Come back and visit me here in Hicksville sometime, kay?"
"Okay."
I hug Emmett next, and he hugs me back tightly. We don't say anything; I always wondered how I would live without him, and now I will find out.
"You're hurting me rib." He says finally, and I step back.
He's angry at me, I know, but he's accepting this. "Believe in Jane." I say. "Please."
"I can try."
Jane is standing slightly off from them, and I hug her. "You and him, you're going to work. You've got to."
I hug my father, and then hop into the car. My tears are starting to fall down my face, but I watch my family fade into a blur of the town I never really felt apart of anyways.
Lacey is gone. She'll come back on occasion, but her point of view will no longer be a regular. After exams I may add Ace, Lacey's friend or Taylor, a male friend of Emmett's. Any preferences?
