Let me go..

Time stood still,

the room silent, there was a chill.

the doctor spoke the words sympathetically,

"you could be saved by will.."

the world kinda froze,

leaving me to myslef,

it was difficult to absorb it then and there,

not knowing how to react,

I slowly nodded and rose.

your comforting smile recieved mine which was wry,

wanted to fall into your arms, heartily wanted to cry.

couldn't break the news to you, not right away,

drank a glass of water, gulped down the truth with it and walked towards you through the hallway..

you asked me what's wrong, for you knew my fake smile,

I bit my lip, shook my head and looked down at the tile.

believe me I wanted to tell you, wanted to let you know,

wanted to be with you all I could, because tommorow you'd have to let me go..

I'm sorry you had to find out this way,

sorry I'm tied to the hospital bed,

sorry I can't soothe you right now,

the energy is all out of me, I can no more pretend it's fake.

i'm angry your hand I can't reach out and take,

can't give it an assuring squeeze, can't ask you to be at ease.

I know you're kinda angry with me too,

but trust me, it wouldn't be thesame if you knew,

becasue I wanted your love, not your sympathy,

but there's one thing you need to know,

my love is forever with you, but not for it to be a cage,

let me be in your life, just a mere beautiful phase.

I'll remember you as my happiness,

so it won't be fair to remember me as sorrow,

and now in this room, as you wildly pace to and fro,

you want me to live, and that's all you know,

my whisper comes out to you,

quivering but firm, "darling just let me go.."