Again

by LJF

Published February 7, 2018

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In poems

I know
I know
I know
I know already!
So why must you
Repeat it
Again and
Again and
Againandagainandagainandagainand
Again?

I’ve done it
Again
I cry
Alone
Because I
Hate
These mistakes
I can’t seem to stop
Making

But
More than that
I hate your
Disappointment
No
More than that
I hate
What it makes you say

You don’t understand
Why
I can’t seem to
Learn
To be honest
Neither
Can I

I hear those words
Those poisonous words
“Incapable”
“Impossible”
“Can’t”

You’re
Heartbroken and hurt and
So terribly
Afraid

That fear
Gives voice
To my own
Secret thoughts

I’m
Incapable
Of changing
It’s
Impossible
For me to
Learn
I
Can’t
Grow from these
Mistakes

Is it true?
It isn’t
It is
It isn’t
It is
Isn’t it?

You say it is and
I trust you more
Than anyone
Isn’t that
How it
Should be?

When I mess up
Once again
You’ll say
Those things
Won’t you?
Not because
You hate me
But because
Fear
Squeezes your heart so much
It just might
Burst

But I hear what you say
I hear what you don’t
Too
It breaks
My heart
To see
Disappointment
Cloud your eyes
So I run and
Hide
Crying
Crying
Always crying

For myself
For what I’ve done
For how you feel
For what you do
For what you say

I know
I know
I know
I know already!
So why must you
Repeat it
Again and
Again and
Againandagainandagainandagainand
Again?

Comments & reviews · 5
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emma1045 Comment
emma1045 commented Comment · Feb 8, 2018

This was FANTASTIC!!!!It's very relatable and I really enjoyed reading this poem.

Keep up the great work!!

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leleparadise
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leleparadise commented Comment · Feb 8, 2018

BEAUTIFUL!!

The delivery, the confusion, heart ache, the self doubt in ones own belief in getting better. The slow to then quick transition of believing the repetitive words of doubt and fear. So relatable. So real. I love it.

I also love the fact that you finished as you began because it just intensifies that same relentless feeling of failure to one’s significantly other. Yet again from that person saying it to now you saying it to yourself to where it’s routine mentally, very good. I really enjoyed this piece. Please keep writing

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Thisislegacy
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Thisislegacy wrote a review Review · Feb 7, 2018

Legacy here for a review.

I relate so much to this poem. It reminds me of how I felt during my abusive relationship and it hit hard. I don't know who or why you are writing this but I could really feel the emotion that I've had such a hard time finding the words for. I love the repetition that you use with certain words such as I know and againandagainandagain. I usually hate it when writers don't use spaces in their words but for this particular one it words so well to help with the rushed feeling as if they don't have enough time to say what they want to say. I don't really have anything of constructive criticism sadly (but this work doesn't really need it, it's practically perfect). Keep writing.

Legacy out.

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LakeOfCancer
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LakeOfCancer wrote a review Review · Feb 7, 2018

I think my favorite part was wen you went back and forth with yourself, saying it is, it isn't, it, then you say, isn't it. It's not because you made that conversation with yourself. It's because you mixed it up. If someone who read this hadn't read this thoroughly, they would've missed it. And they wouldn't have even seen your questionable reasons. You repeating again and again over and over again, really told how this person that you trust and believe more than anything really says these things repeatedly. Which really says something! So because of that, I like it. So keep up the fantastical work dude! I will be waiting to see more from you in the near future!

Oh boy! I don't think I CAN wait now!XD :D

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LJF
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LJF commented Comment · Feb 7, 2018

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YEEEEEEES i've been tagged!

I'm guessing that by me being third in your placement, I'm your third favorite!? Cause that's being way too nice for my liking!XD

Awww! I've been tagged!

LJF replied · Mar 19, 2018

@Dragonier again %uD83D%uDE09



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