Dear Stranger......I think i love u

All those words I had to say,

All those words begging you to stay,

Poured out as silent tears,

Limitless throughout the years.

Because I had a feeling,

They could have never stopped you from leaving,

A love story that occurred out of the blue,

A girl offering her heart to someone new.

Its a story that's never meant to happen,

Never meant to be written,

But oh am I trapped and beaten,

The limpness of my clenched fists of determination.

My heart that shattered into unrecognizable pieces full of pain,

Impossible to stitch whole again,

Why had I been such a loser,

To fall in love with a stranger.

For just the mere brightness of his smiles,

The endless sparkles from his eyes,

That face etched with wit and intelligence,

Blossomed with youth and innocence.

Oh how I questioned my sanity,

For falling so pathetically and hopelessly,

The hurt of thousands of knives like a young man full of sin,

The invisible sharp razors penetrating my skin.

The eyes of humiliation leering at me,

Laughing at my own stupidity,

You who had never talked to me,

Made me see how beautiful gratitude could be.

Gratitude for your presence,

Gratitude for your essence,

Only to be taken away,

In front of me a box full of dismay.

Never before had I savor the beauty of his voice,

But did i even have a choice,

When fate kept toying with my life,

Destiny inscribing your name onto my soul with his knife.

Love took you away,

And kept me trapped in your cage,

Forcing into me the bitterness of that love, that poison,

Life and commonsense laughing at my situation.

Is this Karma,

Am i punished by the cruelty of my past desires,

To play with other's feelings,

Now its coming back to me, game over, i'm loosing.

For anyone who reads this,

I'm just pining for someone i miss,

I apologize for the inconvenience,

For letting you into my tragic experience.

For moving on is never easy,

Because unchangeable are the memories,

Unforgettable is the past,

Because love is meant to last.

So even if i feel like first love is a lie,

True love can die,

No matter how short our times together were,

My heart is possessed by a stranger.