break my fingers when i die

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LadySpark
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Sun Apr 13, 2025 7:48 pm
LadySpark says... · Sun Apr 13, 2025 7:48 pm
bounce me like a ball off the wall
on the walk drag my body down the hall
leaving residue like chalk as you walk
you care you really do why am i not like you

oof, this one.
hush, my sweet
these tornadoes are for you


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Sun Apr 13, 2025 10:27 pm
fatherfig says... · Sun Apr 13, 2025 10:27 pm
@LadySpark thank you so much i really appreciate you commenting on my thread <333
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Mon Apr 14, 2025 2:38 am
fatherfig says... · Mon Apr 14, 2025 2:38 am

napo day 13 'prying hands'

you tear my brain into pieces
my skull a salad bowl filled with stones
you took out my tonsils left my throat raw
no icecream will fix this that much i know
but i don't understand why you did that
i'll never understand how you hit
but you don't expect to be hit back
why are you always on the attack
boney fingers scraping through my brain
like it's your race track like its your home
hurting memories i can't get back
turning me into a plate of broken bones
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Thu Apr 17, 2025 4:52 am
fatherfig says... · Thu Apr 17, 2025 4:52 am

napo day 17 'is it?'


i always tried to have my own orbit
but the only thing asteroids do is float
the absent space is my parlor where
water sharp as diamond crystalizes
through the heart of me i'm made of rock
metallic ore and refuse it's why
i'm so heavy

the only way i'll belong on a planet
is if it's orbit will let me and
i may become a ring or something
but i will likely have a crash landing
burn up in the atmosphere into nothing and
add my gaseous makeup to global warming
because if anything i've always been
a fucking natural disaster and before
you start don't doubt me

you can do anything but tell me
that i am clean and stately and perfect
because i'm the text book definition
of insubordination in a house i didn't
know was going to be my bootcamp
and i've ruined everything since
i was five it's the only thing
i have going for me now

so don't tell me i'm not a problem
that i'm not crazy that i'm not strange
i'm not an alien that i'm not a faggot
because those words feel like coming home
without them i'll realize i'm so truly lost
i'm so hopelessly lost in a world without
love

dont give me a fragment of it
i'll realize i've been without
i'll realize i'm starving
if i can starve without the pain
the pain of knowing surely
a painless death is better
but is it

when there's so much beauty
in a painful life

is it better

is it
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Sun Apr 20, 2025 7:54 pm
Hkumar says... · Sun Apr 20, 2025 7:54 pm
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Hey Gem

Each one of your poems evokes so much emotion. Your imagery is always so vivid and carries deep, powerful messages.

**NaPo Day 4 – "it's a late night"**
I really felt this one. I know how helpless we can feel when we try to seek help and the other person just bombards us with questions. I’ve had to switch multiple therapists over the past 2–3 years, and it used to be so hard to get through all their questions before they actually reached the present moment — the place where I was begging for help *right now*.

napo day 11 'liquor cabinet lament' -> This one really hits hard <3


napo day 17 'is it?' ->
i always tried to have my own orbit
but the only thing asteroids do is float


I loved how you brought planets into this one again. I remember another poem of yours where you compared the narrator to becoming a new Pluto, being outcasted — it really stuck with me. A lot of people can relate to that feeling, even if the context is different. It’s such a powerful and poetic way to express that kind of emotion.

Sending you strength always. I’ll be looking forward to more of your poetry. <3
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Fri Apr 25, 2025 5:21 am
fatherfig says... · Fri Apr 25, 2025 5:21 am

napo day 25 'i hope i get well'

grandiosity is something stolen something
locked away and to have a presence oh
to be there at all is a sin
i thought i could be someone
i don't remember myself from then
i'm sure he was really a good one
i'm sure he still is when i take time
to pretend he exists

i was unfair to you tying you to a
weighted husk of myself
i wanted something more than emptiness
but this shallow heart is my house
of which i'm forever ungrateful craving
a wholeness a creation to cradle
i know i'm greedy reaching out
though my love isn't enough for myself
i'm unable forever incapable
to nurture a love in good health
i suffer melancholy from a fickle touch
that made me realize loneliness was hell
instead of something soft a withering
waning moon that dispells curses
upon my view of myself

i am deeply in need of healing
i want love to help me get well
the truth is something worth fearing
i need to be present in my being
i need to trust my own step
this shallow heart has to keep beating
there is no room for you here
until i can get well satisfied
with my sense of self

i understand this is hell

do you understand this is hell

please understand this is hell

i don't know how to get well

i don't know how to get well

and love is wasted on this shell
but it's all i crave still

please know i'm in hell
hell

help



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.@Hkumar thank you so much and i truly do like planets and space and pluto specifically <3333
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