Eric is dead.
Eric is dead.
Eric is dead.
She wrote it in spray paint she’d bought for a Halloween costume, over and over and over again. On any spare space she could find- brick walls, windows, sidewalks. She’d even managed to climb up on the overpass and declare it in scrawling red letters. She simply didn’t know what else to do.
It had been twenty minutes since Eric had died. It had been twenty minutes since she had held his bleeding body and bid him a final goodbye from the world. It had been twenty minutes since Eric’s heart had stopped beating and she'd found her own screeching in her chest, sick at the thought of the blood staining her jeans.
Her brother had been named Eric, too.
It had been five years since Eric had died. The first Eric, that is. Her brother Eric. She had held his hand as he took a final breath and his heart monitor had begun to scream.
Eric was the first dead person she’d ever seen. Eric was now the second.
She’d loved Eric. Her brother, of course, but also this new one, in his strange manner and smiling eyes always turned up at the sky, marveling at the clouds. Eric was fantastical and brilliant, and sometimes she couldn’t fathom how his head could hold so much in it. Sometimes, too, she couldn’t fathom how he could look at her and see anything at all.
She loved this Eric, except when he introduced himself. Except when his name was called, or when he signed it at the top of his homework or the bottom of his most recent painting.
She hated the name Eric. She hated the way it made her skin crawl, the way her mind wouldn’t let her see anything but her brother’s cold dead hands and glassy eyes, the way she could almost feel his breath growing fainter against her arm.
She loved Eric, but she hated his name. She loved him so, so much, but sometimes she wondered if it was worth it. She wondered if she truly loved him more than she hated the name. She never knew which would end up on top.
Not until twenty minutes ago.
It had been twenty-two minutes since she’d said Eric’s name in a conversation. It had been twenty-two minutes since her eyes had widened in surprise and her heart had twisted sickeningly in her chest. It had been twenty-two minutes since her mind had gone blank and she’d grabbed a rock and bludgeoned his head in.
It had been twenty-one minutes since she’d realized what she’d done. It had been twenty-one minutes since she’d fallen to her knees and taken his bloody cheeks between her hands. It had been twenty-one minutes since he’d looked up at her with confusion and fear.
It had been twenty minutes since she’d watched the light leave his eyes.
Eric is dead, she wrote again and again and again.
Eric is dead.
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