Dear Favorite Ex Lover

Dear favorite Ex-lover, You made me feel like no other

“You’re just different”, That’s what you’d say

You made me believe that I was the best one, that I had to stay.

And as days passed, we made it to 3 weeks.

But you had gotten caught up with the police…

So we split, it was your way of protecting me.. You had left, and abandoned everything

But I said I'd wait. I swore I would.

And you said be patient. I understood.

So I sat as the hours went by. Not a single day left without me texting your number good-bye.

Days turned to weeks. Weeks turned to months.

Your cousin came to me, saying, “I’m sorry, he’s gone.”

That day I didn’t cry. My week was made worse.

And that just happened to hurt..

I couldn't help, I had asked why,

She looked at me blankly and she simply said…..

Suicide.

I learned a lesson, I’ll never like to take,

but my mind says I should, Just for my sake.

I’ll never wait. Not again.

Cause the last time I did.. I made someone feel like a bad friend.

I made them feel forgotten. And I know that hurt.

So I'll never wait. Not again.

Cause what if I misunderstood?

What if he’s still out there? What if I’m just lost?

What if I'm dreaming? What if he’s actually gone.

If he is, it won’t happen again, I let my guard down and I lost him,

It isn’t fair, I know that now,

But it’s okay, For Tears hurt,

And My heart burns, The thought of him is like a curse,

But I’ll survive, Cause he saved me twice,

So I’ll wait for my time, To reunite.

It may never happen, It may never arrive,

And that’s okay, Cause then I’ll cry,

I’ll sit on my floor, Let the tears run wild,

I’ll listen to the rain,

His favorite time, Midnight,

I’ll wait for midnight, Everyday I won’t sleep without telling him good night,

And if I don’t, Lord behold,

I’ll lose my chance to ever let go.

Isn’t it sad? You never know,

One second they're here, The next… You’re all alone.

It was my fault.. Head to toe.