You all are so sweet and supportive!
I don't know what else to say besides, "Thank you."
Warning: This work has been rated 16+ for language and violence.
TW: Mentions of self-harm, suicide, and abuse.
It's my fault, I didn't have to take pills I could've continued to pretend that I was fine. Laying in the hospital bed My liver was slowly giving out My dad even came for me Funny how no one cared Not until I wanted to die The scars on my hand They tell a story A story that I relive Everyday Surprise! My liver is perfectly fine, I won't die I can go home I went home Mom was pissed I don't blame her I agree with her when she says "You are an ungrateful bitch" She slapped me Called me everything I deserved it all Hooray! Mom has gotten married Her husband is now my father figure He called me a bimbo I deserve everything Oh no. Foster care My foster family hates me My throat burns I'm throwing up They won't take me to the doctor I am a burden They treat me poorly, Shoving unwanted opinions down my throat I deserve it It's my fault for being queer My fault Gaslighting Abuse Self-Harm I didn't have to go through that, Did I?
You all are so sweet and supportive!
I don't know what else to say besides, "Thank you."
Hello there! This is Ina a.ka. loveissourgrapes. Not a review, not a comment about this writing. But to tell the writer and anyone who sees this and who has experienced this, to be strong mentally, emotionally, and physically. To be safe and talk to somebody who will understand your struggles and hardships in life. Living a horrible life is really hard so I would gladly help people who feel like this. I never experienced this but I hope all of you are okay especially our lovely writer @sugarscherrypop
Have a blessed day/night everyone! <33
Hi Cher,
So is this the dairy of your life that you've started?
I have to say wow! What a start. A start that hits you right in the chest and leaves a loud bang! I read this piece four times to finally understand every sentence and word you have written.
I am so sorry you had to go through all this. It hits so hard and leaves so many bruises and scars. It seems so unbelievable. I really think humanity deserves better, especially girls and women.
I think it is so unfair that you have been treated this way, because everyone deserves a chance and everyone deserves love.
I hoe everything turns out well for you.
Rinisha
Hi, Mika here. Reading this I'm not very sure if it was truly your fault for ending up in the hospital with an issue with your liver. I'm also quite annoyed reading this, just annoyed at the fact that your parents aren't that supportive. That they only cared when you were going to die. well, thank you for still being alive. Thank you, there are people who appreciate you, it will be okay. Everyone experiences crappy times in their lives when they feel absolutely horrible. You're not alone. and no, you totally did not deserve all of this suffering. you never deserved to be treated like this. you're a human, for god's sake! You are NOT a burden. Even in times where nobody really cares, you still have yourself. as long as you love yourself and treat yourself well, nothing matters. those foster care assholes can continue breathing but it doesn't matter. you have you. don't be embarrassed to only have yourself, because you're amazing, you're precious. don't care about them. They don't know who they're messing with. They won't affect you. They can't, not anymore. as if you're immune to them.
wow. thanks for reading this all. Hope it kind of helps. stay healthy! You're awesome and beautiful just the way you are. Be yourself. be proud of yourself. You can do it. Now go. Be. Yourself.
from what i could tell, its not your fault you got sick. if you were doing drugs or alcohol then yeah its your fault for your liver failing way to go you but other than that its not your fault dont say that as for the pills if that was the reason why your liver was failing then yeah that was a bad decision your fault but listen to me: bad decisions dont make a bad kid. it just means youve gotta clean your act a little, you know what i mean? and pretending to be fine is wrong if you need help. if your family doesnt want to care, then f them and tell them to go to heck ( not cussing for the sake of little kids) call the dcfs or cps. getting a foster care was good ( until later in the poem) and yeah, it is funny how no one cared until you started dying. shame on them. they should care all the time. not when your in trouble. truth is: no one cares. but you know what? if they wont care about you, then you love your self! who needs them? find friends who will love you. the scars on your hand. hey, i have the too. they do tell a story. but what kills you today will make you stronger tomorrow. youll get through this one day. you just have to wait until your eighteen. and my mom would probably be pissed, but she should throw her arms around you and tell you that she cares, not yell at you. thats not right. you deserve better. you didnt deserve to be treated that way. no one does. and now shes married to a rotten person. my mom is like that too, but i guess i lucked out. you have it worse than me. i know the mental abuse is hard. i know it hurts. but you should tell someone about this. go to another foster family. maybe they will be better. write everything down in a note book. get away from those people. get into a loving family that you deserve. you dont deserve to be treated like crap. you deserve better. and your not a burden. your just a child. children need and want. people have to accept that, man! you should love yourself more. if they wont treat you like a queen, treat yourself as a queen! stand up to them. worse comes to worse, they give you to dcfs or beat your bloody. beat you bloody, get taken away. or get taken away period. both are good because this means that you can go to a better family who will love you and protect you. as for being queer, thats a good thing! be proud of it! im the same way. we are very simular. you dont have to go through any of that as long as you do something.
you can save your self.
i believe in you.
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