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UNREQUITED LOVE PAINS
Loving someone and being loved is something that all of us would like to see happen. However, it's strange that what we crave from love is either all about sex, or the true love. People usually choose only one between these two. I'm the type of person who would, no matter what, go with the second choice; the true love. But what if the loved one, unlike you and me, would go with the first choice-with sex?
Unrequited love is maybe the worst thing that someone would ever experience in life. As we all know, it occurs when you love someone to death, but they don't love you back. Let me share a life story I've been experiencing recently. I've been going through some love-related difficulties in life. Please don't judge me by these words; I know I'm still quite young, but I really suffered from love. Actually, let me paraphrase the last part of the sentence: I suffered from unrequited love.
It was a wonderful day in October when I first met a special lady at a place where we both volunteered. We became friends. She was friendly and cute, and I fell in love with her.
I'm a shy human-being. I had never talked to my loved one before. And for this one, it took me months to gather up my courage to start a conversation with her. She was the most special lady that I had ever seen in my life.
After we got a little more friendly by chatting over the next few days, she started to give me compliments, leaving me with the silly thought that we shared mutual feelings towards each other.
But then, two months later, just before I was about to confess my feelings, she told me that she met a new boy. A month later, however, she told me that they broke up. I thought I got the opportunity to talk to her this time, but she didn't let me do it. I had a feeling that she didn't want to chat, for she took hours to reply to my messages.
I decided to try again later.
In my second attempt, something similar happened again. She told me that a guy whom she met three days ago has asked her out, and that she said "Yes".
I got so depressed again.
But no matter how painful these obstacles were, I finally did confess everything this time.
I wish I didn't.
She told me that she would just want to stay friends. She thought that we didn't know each other well because we met each other only few months ago. Then, she proposed me a question, asking why I liked her so much. I told her all the reasons behind it; that she was really beautiful and nice. I don't know why, but she also talked to me about why the other guy, her new boyfriend liked her so much. She told me what that guy has told her; the reason was that she was hot and sexy.
On the one hand, there is a guy whom she has known for three days, and who liked her because of her physical attractiveness. On the other hand, there is me; a guy whom she has known for few months, and who liked her because of her cuteness and beauty inside.
She preferred the other guy.
She tells me that even though it's been few months, she hasn't known me well. But, she still dates someone whom she has known for three days... Strange, isn't it?
She was probably someone who would go with the first option of love-with sex.
Sadly, I started to feel worse. I even got sick few times, just because of the pain and depression caused by what I've been seeing. But at the same time, I realized the truth. First of all, she was right at some point; she was right when she said that we should never ever be together because we indeed did not know each other very well, for I craved the true love while she craved "something else". Secondly, I was the stupid one here for actually talking to her and thinking that we shared mutual feelings.
After getting sick and depressed for months, I decided that now should be the time to forget her completely, even though that's what I've been trying but failing to do so for a long time.
Forgetting is the hardest part of all, but I must forget her as soon as possible, and I must carry on. I indeed didn't know her, and after realizing what kind of person she actually is, I thoroughly think that I deserve someone much better. Just like Celine Dion says, "Don't surrender, 'cos you can win in this thing called love." (Celine Dion-That's The Way It Is)
My advice to all other teenagers who are in the same situation as me is that, never worry too much about your loved ones, and please, think again when you're making crucial decisions. If you think about your mistakes too much, you will no longer live a happy and healthy life.