Nothing ever changes.
Everyday I wear the same boring hairstyle, the same stupid makeup, say the same normal words, talk to the same horrible people, and live in the same dark world.
Everyone promises things will get better but honestly, I don't think it will. I don't even know what I want to do with my life, I'm just stuck in the same thing over and over and over.
But things changed when I met Adam. Adam wasn't like the rest, he was different, unique. He didn't utter the same unimportant words like every one else, he chose them carefully and particularly.
He didn't have the same boring eyes as everyone here either, they were green with specks of blue and they spoke wisdom and they spoke kindness and love. And they spoke the most beautiful poetry to me.
Of course, Adam could never know about me. I would just bring him down with me, I would just hurt him, and I would just bore him. I wasn't worthy of such a pleasant thing. Because I broke everything I touch, I did not deserve Adam.
Yes, I loved him. Oh god did I love Adam. I thought of him each day instead of doing my work and I thought of all the beautiful things he brought into my dull world and I thought about how he made me want to be something that I knew I couldn't be.
I was an outcast, someone that doesn't belong with Adams of the world. I was to stay away from him and to pretend I didn't care and I was to fade into the background. I would not say hi to him, I would not stare at him, I will not, I will not.
But I did. I broke the rules. I went up to him day after day to say hello, like he was a drug and I was begging to get high. He was my everything. He was sweet, and I think he started to return the feelings I felt for him.
He asked me if I would go with him to the theatre, But how could I? I loved him too much to break him. I would not break him. I would not do it.
But I went, and I went, and I went. I loved him and he loved me and soon he become as grey and as boring and as hopeless as I was.
Adam was different until he met me. He was sweet, kind, and his eyes bred hope.
And now Everyday he wears the same boring hairstyle, says the same normal words, talks to the same horrible people, and lives in the same dark world, because I was selfish and developed myself a drug habit that involved Adam.
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