Speechless

Has this life
 been so bad
that I would
beg for no more
or could I lie
 awake here in my bed
 and beg for more
a day begins
with the moon
on one side of me
and the sun on the other

while some people have decided
and I lay here to wither
Or shall I dream of happier days
of only yesterday
of the first cloud I ever had seen,
or the first teacher
in the school I had been.
Shall we end in old school,
days long past.

We have a choice to blow our minds
with a poem that will last
if such strength in friendship be,
we need our hearts to set us free.
we need each other to help and
 support us all the way through.
the toughest times of our lives.
The shadows of the universe crumble on me
As I find ways to fight and break free

I like to stare at the stars
 For a long time
Wondering and hoping
Will there ever be sign?
And then I sense
the stillness wane
though endless thoughts
I do quietly entertain
And when i listen
 to the wind
In the window of tomorrow
I begin to believe
there is no sorrow

But when the night
comes down on me
I cry so hard,
and feel so hollow.

Where is the peace I seek?
In my brokenness
can it be found?

Between Illusions
we are torn
Life sucks and
 then we're born.

Held in my mother's
Gentle loving soft arms.
I there find peace,
Warmth, tenderness
And becoming ever calm
Like the sea
before the breaking dawn

The world stopped its run
for some eternal seconds
As you cried liked a child
as frail as a rose.
gasping for air,
 breathless and shunned,
i gather my spirit,
deliberately I have done
To relive the and hear it

With bleary eyes
I try to see
A different world
 So new to me.

Entangled still
 in silver threads
from taking pills
 in strangers beds

Crossing heaven and hell
though the path seems unclear
we are kept moving forward,
by the love that gives us cheer

Yellow and blue the sky above
Why should we ask for more
A rainbow appears
 after the stormy shore
Has battered waves against
Too soon for heavens door.

knock! Knock! ssh!
I hear someone,
heavy footsteps
 just missing a heartbeat!

when i hear the wind
I think of what we had
Together
and it fills me with joy,
happiness and i remember
what we had was special.
The gentle tapping
 of wind on my door,
Played musical notes
on my heart.

I look to the window, bright sunshine, Gentle wind,
Chirping sparrows, singing nightingale -- all freshening my mind !
The young paint age and the old paint youth
On both their faces speaks no truth.
Bewildered about the rudderless ness of people
I see with astonishment how they still can walk through sunbeams of life ..
That shine so bright as to blind them,
They stumble through randomly, not seeing....
Not seeing what was.
A dizzied memory last night
i see you in my dreams
for me its a reality.
in it flower bloom
but murder by the thorn
i was ignoring the pain
i was stupefy by love
listening to the music turns
to be a misery that
 sounds makes me alone.

With my thoughts and fears.
Depression and tears,
Dreams, then nightmares.
No one cares
Loneliness aches.
My soul it takes
Need to break free.
From the pains of misery..

and go back to the plains of hope
Ive seen it before when my mind evoked.
creations in my sleep that ran so deep
it manifested a smile onto my teary face
such a sweet ecsape from this dreary place
of mine that my life has developed.

trapped in the depression that enstrangles my mind
But I know it will get better when embellished in time
a bolt of lightning hit me then,
I thought redemption received me at once
smiling at my door there stood with pink hands,
the big eyed child hoping for some fun
Like a bolt from the blue
The reality broke into me!
My senses befooled mine
My eyes beheld the unreal.

As a child i watched the stars
with a will and wonder to join them.

At the beginning and the end of the day is poetry found,
God's little ode in sunrise and his sonnet sun down.
I wish all dawns bloom like the dancing daffodils
Flourishing all barren minds with eternal happiness!

Frowns to smiles.
Tears to laughter.
Nightmares to Dreams.

Yesterday's trials a distant thought.
Living life today...For it is short.

Is it because I am forlorn, lost and lonely
Or maybe, just a shadow.
Of yesterday and times gone by
Tomorrow will arrive
And love will triumph.

I crave for the sunrays gone.
on my face,so moist,so mellow,

splash! the blood spluttered like the sunlight!
all in all it was red again!

But still I try through bated breaths,
I reach for sunshine, defeating death.
The darkness lifts as I embrace,
this gentle night , an angels grace.

Contemplative, demigoddesses with radiating magnificence as the realm of nature.
Possessive, pricked through reduced till wilted shells heartless and regardless.
Beauty languishes without freedom.

Slender movements goes through the pale environment.
In contrast to fierce winds muffled with dull thuds of the incoming waves.

Free yourself from the worldly clause,
If don’t live this moment, it is a great loss,

As I lay on my back gently with eyes closed to the bed of flowers full of fragrance
My body turned numbed, seem paralyzed but what a feeling oh, it was paradise.
If my dawn begins only to feel the meaning of solitude,
pain and agony, i'll take the chance,
And fight and do what's needed, be brave,
rather than not witness noon and sunset of my life.…

The rolling sound of the whirlwind of my mind,
destroys now the silence that surrounds
Like a compass that directions moves past,
as if confused of which direction twas'.

And as I opened my eyes in the sunrise of my life
A decision of what and where to be was on my mind
The sorrows of the past cut through me like a knife,
That cuts through butter.
Those memories of the past are bitter,
Like a knife that cuts through butter.
Now I shut my life’s shutters,
My loneliness makes me feel better.

Because no matter how lonely I am after closing the shutters of my life
Looking with my head up high,with all my heart and soul i'll face destiny that God bestowed me
Oh....but to take such a pause at this time
T'wood be such a crime

Feeling better of loneliness that is with in me now
And full of hopes to face and build a new life alone
To walk on to the path that leads the way
Of where the righteous and the oblivions go.
A long and lonely path.. Maybe.
For now, enlightened, my eyes do see.
An eternal search for peace of mind
Seems ne'er ending. My soul to find.

This wish of mine could be one of its kind,
My soul with you, I would like to bind.
The binding of our souls will mark the strength to a life everlasting,
My lonesome heart, sleepless nights and long days of sorrows has now its end.

I never thought this road will take such a bend,
I am thankful to god, for giving me a trusted friend.
A friend through years, to lean on, to the defend on
That I may have and call a true pal of my own.
As years passed by, greyer our hairs have grown,
I spend more time with you now, rather than being alone
Twenty Times I'v orbitted the Sun
Revolved or Evolved, Its a Fun.

What so wonderful memories we have together indeed
A grace from the LORD that nobody, yes none would try to perceive
Through thick and thin our wheel of life together will be going
As smooth as it is expected for the love in our hearts will remain.
Two as one, one as a whole.
Eternal bonding of hearts and souls
This is a game, where there are no fouls,
Seeing us being like this, my friends howl.

For they are fools. Thet cannot see.
How "true love" can really be.

For love see no differences to a dearly beloved
And all are beauty and perfect mistakes he make.
Love happens when there are mistakes
and mistakes happen when you are in love.

Holding each others hands, let us walk besides the lake,
On its shores, we can build castles of mud cake.
Yes hand in hand, shoulder to shoulder,
we walk by the shore watching the water surface..
Looking at the water surface if how soon
 the castle we build will
 be rushed and carry back as if they had their fill
And consider the relation of the sea to our life
If calm and still it means good and wavy means troubled

And the comparison is true, that in our life
we go peace and troubles were there to be
But with by my side, together we swim and
successfully win the battle of the waves of the sea.

I recollect the good memories, like honey collected by the bee,
I am the protector of the hive, you are my queen bee.
The memories were treasured, and on a golden vault i keep, so good reminiscing
Knowing my knight in shinning armor is a valiant defender for his queen.

That we will share, love, honor and respect
The life everlasting that the Lord to us guaranteed.
Defending treasured and the queen,
my intensions are clean,
I am a strong knight, though small and lean.
A clean intention God has an ear to listen and grant
Eternal grace for the souls that care and understand.

As a knight besides the queen I will stand,
For her beauty and grace I am her great fan.

Bothered and bewildered by my enchantment over you, my gorgeous chancellor
Bewitched, I was conquered by the faithful promise of your love my valiant warrior.

For the love and respect of the queen, will break all barriers,
For this act of insanity, I might be abandoned from the hive.
Banished by others without a care.
For the love of a Queen I can not share.
But I am a vailiant worker Bee.
I strive to overcome their jealousy.
After they abounded me, I will be free,
For me, I am my own King, for the queen still a humble bee.
No matter what, thy queen will remain
ever faithful and loving,
 the sorrows and pains not to withstand
The loneliness, the fears and doubts,
because of eternal love that was bound
 to be served and fulfilled only to thine knight.

Now on my abandonment letter the jury will rubber stamp,
To make my own kingdom, I will have to fight.

For this act, I care for none about my plight,
In the fight I might die, after which oh queen! please hold me tight.

For my final fate, I have no fear.
I accept it, for you my dear.
If I can behold your beauty as I lose the fight.
A battle I've fought with all my might.

I have survived the battle of honey bees,
Though I lost, have won the heart of thee.
Abandonment never entered thy mind, for the not dieing heart of me, the beehive sting,
All love , respect and trust the Queen gave but none other than the armored knight, my king..

Holding you to the tightest and might
The power of love now beholds the light..
The spirit and the soul cannot part, cannot hide
Nearness of my King is all now that I want.

With these words of mine I will always abide,
Will fight the whole world with you by my side.
Together now, hand in hand.
King and Queen of our land.
Conquering all our fears and foe.
To the future we gallantly go.
At all phases of life, I will not let go,
Take my word, this is my vow.

A vow i will honor to the land we adore
That through your courage in all endevours
The countrymen, the land and the Queen
All rest assured to be free from the conquerors.

And to you my King, my valiant knight
A song of love and trust I send with delight.

Full of hopes and enthusiasms your country and thrown
Awaits your coming from the furious war safe and secure.

On this second attempt, I am going to win for sure,
My love and respect to you is pure.
During the clashes of the swords,
I will pay no heed to the blood red.
Every blood shed from thy sword when dashed
Means a count of thy great love and heroic mind.
My heart and my mind was set to have seen you won
The battle cry of the thy mother land and thy people
With dieing souls of the enemies, the foes
Stands my hero, my knight, my valiant warrior
Graced by God by his noble purpose
Guided by my prayers, my love and devotion
Tearing apart the enemies colony,
I will show no emotion
On the battle field I am an animal,
The worst of it’s kind.

he sharpest of my sword they will find,
This battle is so much filled with blood.
Never seen any battle of its kind,
I am possessed by the ghost of death.

My enemies’ death is the only thought in my mind,
Will wash the pain of my queen and men.

With the over flowing river of blood,
Seeing me in the battle, the enemies make a run

In the battle you are the hero, the victor
A great honor to our land, to our people
Choosing you my love, my life and soul
The heavens decide you're worth your thrown.
The land, the castle and the queen now awaits the coming of the king
With flags up high, though some many a brothers fall in that war
They were heroes like my king and some celebration for the victors
Was prepared to glory and honor the coming of my king and the battalions.
With glory and honour..we embrace love and peace.
The end of war..a blessed release.
For we can now move forward to brighter days.
A life of love, peace and happiness is here to stay.
As the sun shines brightly for us all.
Never again shall we stumble and fall.
We rode the storm and are victorious.
Our future life will be glorious.
The sun breaks through the clouds of depression.
A rainbow follows and leaves an impression.

Sunshine now shrines in the loved motherland
A rainbow to follow for a more colorful fruitful life
This is now the time that our loved be blessed
With fruits of togetherness to reign the thrown.
My king I therefore behold thy presence
Concentrate my days with you for the kins
The next rulers, defenders of the thrown
For you will see the fruits of the labour
Oh mighty my King come close to your Queen
A passionate dream I render your majesty, my king
All your efforts and struggles in the hands of the invaders
Will now get rewards of happiness from yours truly, your Queen

know it’s time to reap rewards,
However we need to built our colony,

A tribute to the men who died, the colony is my award,
From here on there will be no monopoly.

The Royal honey will be shared,
For this is what I dreamt all my life.

All my fellow men will be cared,
For this is what I dreamt all my life.

Thy words and thoughts of concern to your valued lost countrymen
Your turn of event to reap prize for honor and loyalty to your mother land
And the lost soldiers of the bee colony now you must create
A count of new hives to replenish,
to accelerate the colony of the lost commandos.

This the only way I can compensate this loss,
Not to prove to the other colonies, who’s the boss.
I expect my queen’s support for this noble cause,
Not a moment to lose, no pause.
As to the vows we made when we were tied binded by the knots
For any reason or for any cause I'll be a great support to last
And the lost battalion be added, be doubled in preparation.
To protect the safety of the crown, the scepter and thrown.
I see today to an unbeatable empire, ours as grown,
I can taste the honey of freedom yellow and brown.

I pray to god, the almighty for peace and prosperity,
This must last on this land for eternity.

A noble act and deed i'm sure and trust
The Almighty will won't assert you nor decline
All your requests and dreams will be served
Because He knows of your soul and your heart.
A humanitarian is my beloved knight
All graces of the Lord i'm sure will reign
In this promise land that you have been
The leader, the ruler, the mighty King.

Our mighty king moved today in far away land let's pray for him
For a good and successful conference with dedicated leaders and rulers.

To the people of the land blessed by the almighty
I am announcing the gift the LORD had given me..
Let you all be the first to know the luck that now i am happy.

Help me pray too that what He grant me
Will be the next to rule and lead the country.

Your king, your protector, the noblest of the bees,
Before you all will take the hand of the queen.

The priests, the noble men, all citizens appear for this wedding,
The angels too appear in the sky, they say “Oh my god, what a happy ending”.

The angelic choir sing their song.
Celebrating a love.. So true and strong.
The people in the streets, they dance and sing
As they recover from their enemies sting.

Tomorrow is a brand new day.
Our children free to laugh and play.
We are really glad that the
king and the queen now were united
the wedding of the couple
the whole land of will surely rejoice.

The sunshines over our beautiful land.
United lovers.. hand in hand.
You give me a rose to signify love.
It's all I ever dreamed of.

Do dreams really come true?
Is it real?..Me and you?
Or just imagination and fantasy?

When I awake from this beautiful dream.
Will things be as I think they seem?
Will you still be here?..OR..will I be alone?
Will my aching heart turn to stone?

It is not a dream like what you ask, you think
My love for you will never disappear and sink
though the wildest waves of the sea creeps
then i maybe drowned by your lovely face.

get up my love open your eyes
i am just here watching you by my side
insects and pests can never touch your skin
or i will kill them, right here in my hands.
my deepest love like the blue sea
calm and solemn yours through eternity
you will always be my flowering
my fragrant yard of roses of all kinds
cause that s how i see, i feel you are
sweet and soft need no heavy hands
but light touch of fingers full of love.
no worries then must enter from within
your mind, your spirit, your inner most
cause trust and confident is all we need
for a great noble heart our love to keep.

but is keeping our love as hard as it seems?
Will it stay or shall it falter?
Will we be together always?
Or shall we fall to pieces?
Will I ever see you again?
If I don't I know what has happened,
for our love is stronger the that of all others,
when you die, part of me dies also.

Love is unpredictable, you see.
How do you prove your love to me?
How do I prove mine to you?
Questions I have, more than a few.

While my steps may falter one by one
I cannot stop walking toward the sun
Yet though it rains on my heart
Your love shall hopefully never part

The sun shines brightly all around.
Feet tread carefully on the ground.
You leave your footsteps in my heart.
Our future together we finally start

But how can we start it
with a clean slate?
when you hide all these secrets
about both of our fates?.

My dear I am sorry,
 you just misinterpret me
I don't hide and
 will never hide
anything to you.

Our fate is the future that will come and was bound
Just before we were born, we have to accept the fact.

But with our great love that we found
Doing our best will make us feel the meaning
Of what was true love and what it brings
So doubts in your mind you must forget.
So that what we are now and what we will share in life together
Great memories that will be remembered when we're no longer here.

Could we for now forget our memories?
And live for the moment
Could we for now forget our worries?
And forget life’s torment.

Could we for now live, like no tomorrow?
And burry our sorrows
Could we for now take one step at a time?
No rush, steady and slow is fine.
Could we for now not take decisions that are hasty?
And make life spicy and tasty.

Could we for now better understand each other?
And not let anyone bother.

Could we for now make a peaceful living?
And life is about giving.

Could we for now enjoy nature?
And not think too much about the future.

Could we for now get lost in some fantasy land?
And hold each others hand.
Could we for now walk into the golden stream?
And yell and shout and scream.

Could we for now enter the castle of our dreams?
And yell and shout and scream.

Could we for now run around trees?
And this land is mine, everyone are free

Could we for now spend sometime alone?
Before my country needs me again and I am gone.

Could we for now not be king and queen?
And just be what we are, just we.

Could we for now keep our differences aside?
And walk hand in hand, side by side.

Could we for now not think what is wrong or right?
And on petty issues let’s not fight.

Could we for now enjoy the moon in the night?
And please hold my hand tight.

Could we for now have dinner in candle light?
And environment is dim light not bright.  

Could you now feel the chillness in the air?
Your silence is killing me now, which is unfair.
Being together alone how I wished for long
To be with you forever wants of my heart and my soul.

I exactly really don't know the meaning of day
thinking you're away on the field of battle.

And now its the time or us to be one
I know were made to be a woman and a man
To share the passion of love in our time.

Sharing days and nights alone with you
Enjoying the bliss of sensations of human fashion
of lust and love and like and want.
Softly and gently i come to thee
Offering myself to be your fantasy.

Touch of deep care and remarkable moves
To thy feet my king now I pose, now I devote.

Forget all between us for the sake of our love
And put my mind to you and your might
Not only in battle of war you are great
But in our paradise you are more brave.

The laughters, the whispers the hums you made
Were sweet and tickling wind to my ears.