Life of a Jesusfreak. prt1 (a new friend.)

 A Dim fire in the midst of a dark war. the only sign of hope at times. atleast it is to me. sitting alone by it.The swords clashing, grenades detonating. the sounds of heavy artillery. im not sure why. but this fire is the only friendly face i have seen all day. as my gaze focuses on the danceing flame, a horn sounds off. i get up. and walk twards it. breaking back through the darkness.

 i push the large doors open, walk to his throne and kneel. "yes my lord?" i reply to the prince who stood there. he took a while to wait for me to finaly look at his face. he smiled. "Tobi. you have a new mission" he hands me the doccument. i begin to open the doccument as he continues "The king requested you go on a special mission." as i streach the folded doccument out i read it carefuly:

 "Tobi,  you have fought with all of your blood. you have indeed earned your wings. but its time for you to enter the front lines. do not worry this is a task you are able to do. but when you do this, be sure to be a example of me.

 i close the doccument and look at the prince. "tell him i can do it". i said handing back the doccument. "so were do i go?" i ask. the prince reaches down infront of me and pulls a hatch up. under the hatch had a deep hole of clear water. as clear as it was it was still difficult to fully see the bottom. i look back up at the prince as i get back up. "thank you for your time Prince of peace." i said, as i approach the water. "tell god itll be done" i took a leap into the water, more less a dive into it. my wings folded back to ensure i fit, and i sunk through the water at high rates, still able to breath. farther and farther down until i finaly saw an end. a cloud. i felt my mission begin the instant i broke through.

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 If a cafateeria was compared to life. then im the tuna soup that nobody likes. eather that or the waterbottles that people pass by to grab milk. i stir my mashed potatos with my spoon as i ponder these thoughts. Im what, 17? almost halfway through the semester and nothing has changed sence i moved here 3 months ago. i still set alone, i still have no friends, my parents are never home, and the mashed potatos here still have eyes in it. all i have to hold onto are my grades and that just makes it worse. the kids think i think im better then them. are people stareing at me? no. i wish i could get atleast that. im ignored here, im ignored at home, i even wonder if the school even knows im an enrolled student.

 the mashed potatos change color into a purple texture. means its time for me to go. i pick the trey up and scoop the remains into the trash. i open the doors to a bright sunny day.  almost everywere i look in the campus i see people all gatherd together. some in big groups, some just 2 people smooching under a tree. no matter what it was, it was sotmhing i didnt have. but most of the reason why is because im shy, and also not very socialy comfortable. every day after lunch i go to this spot i found, its on a slight hill by a working generater. its shaded by the school and often allows a slight breeze to blow through. its high enough to get a plain veiw of every1, perfect for somone with the life like mine. so as i walk to my spot, i seen somone sitting there. Normaly id try and avoid confronting but i knew the person.

 Naomi. she sat in the spot i normaly do, stareing out into the distance. the wind blew through her long hair, darkish in color but still pretty. she always sat in a cross legged fashion. she would rather sit that was on the floor then in school chairs. she wore a satchel like always and always worn torn or worn out jeans as well as a shirt both in tan to match. i wasnt gona ask her to move, or get close. at first i just stood there wondering why she was there. but she took a glance at me and i hid behind a generater that usualy its by. i took a second glance, and she was gone. nothing was left except. a satchel. she must have forgot it. i quicly scurried over and grabbed it. i looked around for her but she wasnt there. so i placed the strap over my left shoulder and let it dangle on my right hip. it looked good on me, but i didnt get too used to it. i needed to return this to her. maybe we can talk after or somthing. i smiled at the thought of that and walked around looking for her.

  soon the bell rang. no sign of her. but no worries id usualy see her in class. i placed the satchel in my locker and began the other half of hell. she normaly is there for the next 4 classes but. today it was weird. she must have got sick or had to leave for an early doctor appointment. as the bell rung again i grabbed the satchel and walked out of the school. just a normal day like usual. nothing exciting happend other then the satchel i got. i arrive home and my parents like usual are not. my mom works full time at a nurseing home. and picks up alot of hours. she might as well live there. she comes home to sleep. my dad works as an internationaly famous prophet. dont get me wrong, its great haveing some spiritual dude being your father. but not when u never get to see him.

 i locked myelf in my room. like normal. even though nobody even wants to come in here. nornaly i would just watch tv, write a blog about my life nobody reads, or just go to sleep early. but today was different. i sat down on the ground and looked up. i felt desperate. Ive had enough of being ignored. so i decided to do what my dad told me to do. i said in the most mono tone i could ever say "Dear god. are you there?" i hear my dog shuffle across the floor outside, i must hurry before my dog starts barking to go outside. "i know your will is for me to be totaly invisable to everyone, even you but.." i hear my dog move closer to my door, my dog is about to bark and startle the heck out of me, why cant he just wait till im done praying. its not like i do this regularly. "but can u atleast make one day of my life eventful?" and to my suprise my door is kicked down! wood flies around, nearly scrapeing my face, as the dust almost chokes me. i stand up alarmed stareing at the person in the door. nobody. the door is empty. as i start to say "Ummm what the he-" suddenly a large man, taller then a normal one dives at me, tackleing me to the ground. on his back was 2 wings, he was dressed in a somwhat military fashon. but instead of camo his uniform was total white. "I am Sargent tobi of the ASF and you are in seriouse danger!" he yells, pulling me up forcefully "but dont worry! everything is going to be alright!"

 i push him away and stare at him with a cock eyed expression. "Excuse me! first off you got the wrong guy, second off you need to get me a new door!. he examins the door. "well wood isnt a good defence, consider it a favor." he glances back at me "look i know your scared but it is ok now, i am here". i grow more angry at his answer. but stop and calm down. "look, i know probably one of my friends called your little asf team and told u im some sort of importan man. but im not. im not important and yknow what, forget the door. just go and find another person and kick there door down. just let me be" i turn around and sit, faceing my back to him and i hear a gasp "wait. you dont have wings?" he pulls a doccument out, reading the fine print he overlooked. "Michael scott of the family of Sterving" he said. i opened my eyes and a sweatdrop fell down the side of my face. how did he know my full name? " he steps closer and touches me "so your a human?" i can feel the gleam in his tone. i whip around more ticked off "look! i know im a nerd and the joke is realy funny. now can u please leave?" the man stood still, stareing at me with utter amazement. then finaly he takes a deep breath and speaks. "i am truely sorry, i am Sargent tobi from the angel special forces. god sent me on a mission to guard you with my life. and i will." i looked at him, studied his complete outfit and blew him off. yea, sure. god would send an angel down to protect me? from what? lonelyness? its not like i would kill myself. he walks close to me and puts an arm on my shoulder. "so look at me as your body guard". i replyed "god. god sent you? i asked him so many times to do somthing and he sends you now? yknow its a funny joke your playing but like i said you can go home." the man gets almsot instantly enraged during my conversation. "How dare you insult the most high! i have been fighting every day of my life for you! do you even know what we go through! my brothers, my friends. all are gone to the war i fought for you!-" he continues to ramble on as i roll my eyes. i heard my father say the same thing many times. but it dont seem like he is going anywere, so i guess he can stay.

 after a while he calmed down, he still had a unhappy look to him. i didnt mean to hurt the "angel" so badly. suddenly i hear the front door open. its about 10 o'clock. my mom is home. maybe she can kick this desperate hobo out of the house and understand my door issue. i hear her footsteps rounding by my room. she peeks in and looks at me. "umm? sweetie? why is your door knocked down?" i give a dirty look twards her and shoots a glance twards Tobi, who is playing with my cat on the dresser. i point to him "Mr Holy G.I.Joe did it." she stares at were im pointing. she gets an irritated look on her face. oh, he is gona get it now. "Im sorry but last time i checked a cat cant knock down a door." i look back at tobi, he is still there petting my cat. and she is loveing it, purring ever so loudly. my mom stomps in, ranting and raveing as she nearly colides into tobi, but he gracefuly slips out of the way. she begans to rant and rave about the door and how i need to respect this house even though i go through hard times. she finaly ends the conversation by saying "Im gona call your father! he is gona know about this!" she storms out of the room. i just sat there, baffled. she couldnt see him!

 i grab tobi by the collar, then i let him go, realizeing he realy is grabable and the fear that he might realy be an angel. "you. realy are?" i say in a timid voice. he continues playing with the cat "oh so mister im too good for gods royal army, got in trouble? and now you decide to belive me?" i threw myself to the floor instantly. "im so sorry your holyness, dont kill me please!" he stares down at me. he pulls me up. "look you got the positions all wrong, in our kingdome the angels are under humans. no matter what our rank." he cocks a slightly irritated look "you may despise our king but he wants you safe. so no matter how bad you are i guess im stuck with you till im called back." i appologize to him, trying to get him to atleast be as happy as he was when he first saw me. but it wasnt any good. he wasnt in the mood. "its getting late, you should be getting to bed." he says, looking at me. i stand to quick attetnion and reply "yes sir!" i hop in bed that instant, and close my eyes. i saw how big that sword was on his back, i just layed there until finaly i went to sleep. i could hear him sitting by my bed, sighing and saying "this is gona be a long mission."

 the next day i awoke. he wasnt in that chair he was in. i sat up, the door was in place. the room was clean, no splinters. and i was in a clean white night robe. i step out of bed. did he leave? did i offend him too much? or did he give up on me? i rubbed my eyes and i touched my door it was cold. colder then wood. i felt it more, rubbing my hand agensed it. "is this steel?" i said, noteing the bolts. i turn the doornob and as i push i nearly knocked somone over. i looked around the corner and there he stood. tobi. he looked kind of rugged. his clothes were stained in a dark substance and his wings looked ruffled. his sword had black blood on it and he stood with this blood splatterd on his face. i noticed the animals are gone and my horrified expression alerted him to me. "What did you do to Sheba!" i yell about ready to grab him but hesitates. as soon as i said that Sheba trots by my with her slim tail flickering as she purred. he looked at me. then tobi spoke "dont you ever read your bible? the enimey comes in the midst of night. and i had to fight for two. not only is one of gods childerin here, but his sargent too. they arnt going to send just one wave in. so i battled them. and set defences up." i glance at the door. then i look at the time "well um. school is my next thing so um. you stay here? and i go to school and ill be back at 2:30." as i walk away he followed me, not a word from him. almost as if he totaly ignored the words i said. great. this will be a good day at school.

 the angel is seriouse about his work. he wouldnt help me with any problems on school work. he jsut followed me, arms crossed. weaving around everyone who couldnt see him. atleast no one could see him. it may give an impression im delusional but i wouldnt have to explain so much. lunch finaly came, i skipped it. the least thing i need is commander tobi destroying the cafateeria because the food is from hell. he didnt seem to get the joke and kept wanting to observe the cafateeria.so i pushed him in there, and shut the door. then i ran outside.

 i went to my spot, she wasnt there. good. so i sat and people viewed. things seemed almost as normal as it did yesterday. the wind blowing ever so gently, the sun gleaming bright. the grass swayed in the wind next to the trees that towered overhead. i sat there and took a deep relaxing sigh. then i felt a hand on my shoulder. i turned around and naomi was standing behind me. i stoopd to my feet quickly, as i tried to say hello i think you forgot your satchel. all i could make out was a studderd version of hi. she stoped. smiled and replied. "i see why you like this spot." i turn around, looking at the veiw of the whole school yard. my nervs calmed from the veiw and i was free to speak again "thanks, but why did u come up here?" she walked infrot of me interupting the view and my nervs unsettled as my shyness kicked back in. "i seen you up there so many times sence you moved here. i figured you were quite lonely. so do you mind if you get another veiwing partner?" i felt my cheeks tense but at the same time this wasnt a spot to blush at. so i held it back and replied forgetting the full question. "yes" she looks puzzled, "yes you do mind?" i shake my head instantly "no no i mean yes u can! that'd be great! i mean lovely! i mean.. good" she giggled a little and looked down. "it looks nice on you" i looked to were she was stareing and noticed i had her satchel on "Im sorry! you left this the other day and i wanted to return it but i couldnt find you and-" "keep it" she says interupting me. "it looks great on you, plus look at it as a token of our friendship. first leme get somthing out of it" she reaches in and pulls a notebook out, she studies the lock that it wasnt tamperd and put it in her backpack. "oh no i couldnt keep this satchel. its yours" i say smiling politely. "you dont want to be my friend?" she replys. "yes! i do" i reply back. "then keep it please." she smiles. not soon after that the bell rung. the one time sence i moved here that i wish i bell DIDNT ring.  we both waked into the school together.

 the first 2 classes was different. tobi wasnt there. so i felt a little less stressed out then this morning. but Naomi was there. every once in a while she shot me a wink when the teachers would say somthing funny. the rest of the day was fun. i enjoyed it more then usual. when the final bell rung i actualy felt bad to leave but i did. as i walked into my room tobi was pranceing around in circles. i looked at him and asked him whats wrong. he stopped for a moment. "wrong? nothings wrong im just trying to wrap my mind around this" i sit on my bed next to him "wrap your mind around what?" he stopped agian. "the cafateeria." i sighed. "look it was a joke. there realy is no food from hell there i was just useing what we humans call Humme-" "its not that!" he cuts me off "i seen another ASF unit in the cafateeria" i scratched my head and replied "so? arnt angels everywere?" he paused again and shot me an irritated look "He was watching a kid too." my eyes grew with awe and i hopped up "who is it! i cant wait to meet him! i can finaly prove im not crazy!" tobi shoots me a irritated look as i say crazy then calmly responds "he is a good friend of mine, however he is very forgetful. he said his kid forced him into the cafateeria on a special ops mission too" he says the last part in a sarcastic tone. then goes back to prancing. i throw myself on my bed and look up to the cealing. there are more like me? i wonder who it is? maybe its some popular kid in school. and then we can be friends and i could possably be popular too? i looked at tobi, watching him prance, still a little ruffed from last night. part of my wants to help him. hes helped me. maybe this other person knows more about helping them then me? i lay back again and think about Naomi. i hold my satchel tight while i think. and right as i start to doze off into thought, "dont forget to say your prayers. us angels dont get to talk to god through jesus, so consider youself privleged. he likes to hear from you, and while your at it can you give him a good report about me?"tobi replys. watching me. "also cute girl, is she christian?" i let out a loud groan and rolled over "what are you my mom?" the angel laughs. "no consider me as a reminder."

i said a small prayre and held my satchel tight. it was the only dim fire i could see in this dark war of life. so i am going to sit by it, and enjoy every second i get with it.