On my birth certificate it reads, Miranda Maddison Myers. Nowhere on there does it say idiot or ugly because that is not my name. If you’re like me, you’re already shattered and ready to break apart. So when a person calls you a name, it just makes you want to stay in your room and never come out. People don’t understand how powerful a four-letter word is, until they see what they did to that person. A person will go a long way just to prove you wrong and I’m living proof of that.
Growing up, I was constantly bullied every day from the same kid. I was never really bothered by it, until my own friends abandoned me. You know why they left? Because I wasn’t cool, I was just the ugly kid who got made fun of. At least that is what I grew up knowing, that I wasn’t going to be a popular kid. I was a nerd in everyone's perspective, and not once did someone ask me if I really was. I finally came to the understanding that he was never going to leave me alone. I grew used to him being there and making fun of my name. He used to chant MIR-AND-A, that sounds really funny! Oh, look at the veins over her eyes! I hated that but everyone else was okay with it. Everyone saw what he did, but not one person spoke up.
I finally gave up after he called me fat and ugly. I decided to change after that, I stopped eating and I wore makeup. I decided that if being skinny and pretty was the way to stop everything then I would become that. I was tired of being made fun of, I didn’t want to deal with it anymore. I eat 500 calories a day and burned all of it when I came home from school. I ran a mile every day and played basketball until I couldn’t stand anymore. My mom was okay with that because I told her that I was preparing for the cross-country and basketball team for middle school. She never questioned that either because I was in fifth grade so it made sense to her. When I was 11, I became diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa and Depression all because of two words.
When I went to the middle school, I never did join those teams. Instead, I joined a lot of weight loss blogs and followed people who gave tips about it. In the process of doing that I actually made some friends. They struggled with the same things I had but we tried helping each other out of it. I got better, I finally weighed an average weight for kids my age. But they didn’t, no matter how hard I tried to help nothing changed. They eventually gave up and committed suicide. I lost 3 friends and you know why? Because they were getting bullied, and they couldn’t take it anymore! After that, I went back to my old ways and became severely depressed.
Even if you don’t realize it, names can change a person for the worse. Like I said before, I’m living proof of that. I never joined those teams because they were a constant reminder of everything horrible that happened to me. Other people might not get impacted the same way I did but they still are. Who knows, they might self-harm to forget their pain or even smoke. But they still changed and that is all that matters.
All I am asking you to do is think, just think before you say something. One name can cause a person that is already broken to just completely shatter. If you already called somebody a name that was rude or mean apologize. Because who knows, they might not be there tomorrow. All because that stupid name was ringing through their head. If it isn’t on their birth certificate, don’t call them what you were going to. Through all of my experience I learned one thing. I learned that if someone calls me a name, to respond with My name is Miranda Maddison Myers and nothing else.
~R.I.P. my friends, I really miss you
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