Two sides of a story chapter 1-5

Chapter 1

He was the most popular boy in school and I am the dorky girl with glasses, a ponytail and I get the highest scores in my class. If I got 99% in a test the whole class would be in shock. In school I was a dorky girl with high scores, because I don’t want to worry my mom who is in the hospital. My dad left me and my mom a month after I was born. I feel a little like it was my fault, but if I said that in front of my mom, she would get mad. She would say that of course it wasn’t my fault, but my fathers. The popular boy in my school and goes in class 1-D and my class is 1-C. His name is Will and I glance at him at times. I don’t have the body or the pretty face like the girls he are hanging out with.

I have two sides of my life, my school life and my free time outside of school. In school I’m the dorky girl with the high scores, but in my free time, I go out at night to my part-time job as a hostess. I work from 5 pm to 1 am at night. I have a few hours when I get home from school to do the housework, eat and maybe do a little homework. When I get home I take something to eat, do the rest of my homework and go to bed at 130 am or 2 am at night. It’s a hard life, but I’m getting used to it. At the school it’s forbidden to have a part-time job, so I put on a wig, take contacts in and put make-up on. Even I can’t compare myself with the me in school. When I’m in school I use my real name that is Sara, but when I’m working I use the name Nicole.

At work I have a locker were all my dresses are and I keep getting new ones each week, so the costumers doesn’t get bored by looking at the same dress. The big surprise is that I am the number 1 host and I get good money to pay for food, dresses, school things and my mom’s hospital bills. When I think about it, I was glad that I have this job and I’m quite lucky. The funny thing is I was scouted when I was on my way home from school, but decided to buy some food in the supermarket. I was walking down the street, when someone grabbed my arm.

“What are you doing?! Let me go!”

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you, but can I take some of your time?”

I stared at him and didn’t know what he wanted. He was a beautiful man with golden hair, pretty narrow lips, blue eyes like the beautiful clear ocean and a fit body. He was just like a host, but what did he want from me? I was a thin girl without big breasts, beautiful skin and a pretty face. Could he want to kidnap me? No, no... If he wanted that, he would have done it another place, where there weren’t this many people or no people at all.

“What do you want from me?”

“I want to transform you into a hostess.”

When I heard that, I started to laugh so much the whole crowd gave me a glance. The man that grabbed my arm looked at me and lifted one of his eyebrows.

“I’m sorry, but take a look at me. If you said that to other people, they would laugh too.”

“Do you know why I spotted you out of this crowd?”

“Because of my plain look?”

“No, because of the aura you have around you.”

“My aura? Are you crazy or something? I’m going home, I have something to do. It was a good joke, but I don’t have time to joke around. Goodbye.”

“I won’t give up that easy, you will see me again.”

“I rather not. Good day.”

I began walking home and decided I would go to another supermarket on the way home instead. Want to transform me into a hostess? Did he look at me or is he blind?

The next day, he showed up again and the day after that and the day after that. He kept this up for two weeks and then after the weekend he was waiting for me by the front gate when I got free from school and was surrounded by girls. I saw him and turned around to walk out of the back gate, when he grabbed my arm for a second time.

“Are you making it a hobby to stop me by grabbing my arm?”

“I can’t do it different, because I don’t know your name.”

“Fine, my name is Sara and I’m 16 years old. Do you want to know more? My mom is in the hospital, my dad left after I was born, I live alone and I struggle to pay for my mom’s hospital bills. Are you happy now? So leave me alone!”

He just stood there staring at me with a sad look in his eyes. The girls around me were glaring at me because I got all of his attention. Then when he finally spoke I knew I had to do it, if he was going to leave me alone.

“Give me 3 hours and if I can’t prove your beauty, then you can go home and you will never see me again. But if I am right I want to give you a job as a hostess.”

I looked at him and I could see he didn’t lie.

“Okay, just keep your promise.”

“Of course, I always keep my promises.”

I nodded to him and followed him. The girls around me were looking at me with surprised eyes. I know what they were thinking probably something like “what does he want with that plain girl?” Or something like “that boy has to be her brother or something. Because there would be no way a good looking guy like him would talk to a girl like that.” We were walking down the street and into a glasses store.

“What are we doing here? My glasses are fine?”

“You will see, stay here.”

He went and talked to the woman at the desk and she walked into a room in the back. She was thin, had big breasts, red lipstick on and had a tight black dress on with bare legs. I followed him into the room where the woman was standing with contacts in her hand. I looked at the beautiful man, whose name was Gabriel, and he nodded at the chair.

“Sit down and take your glasses off.”

I sat down and took of my glasses the woman came closer and opened my eye one at a time and put the contacts in. I could see again and looked at Gabriel. He was smiling, like he knew he had chosen the right person to be a hostess. We went out of the glasses store and went further down the street. We stopped at a hairdresser and went inside. Gabriel talked to the lady and I think they were talking about how she should cut my hair. The lady began cutting my hair and I didn’t say a thing. After that it was the make-up and she sat my hair afterwards. Gabriel’s smile got bigger and bigger. I was about to look at myself in the mirror, but Gabriel stopped me.

“Why can’t I look in the mirror?”

“Because I want it to be a surprise. Let’s move on, there is one last place I want to go.”

I followed him out of the hairdresser and we walked for quite some time and the stores became more and more expensive. I looked at Gabriel’s back. He had wide shoulders and a slim waist. I think every woman would die to go out with him, but not me. The hottest guy for me was Will. He was cool in everything he did like football, relaxing or even when he sigh in class. Everybody would die to be his girlfriend and if he showed more affection for one girl, the others would turn against her and get her to keep away from Will. I never showed my feelings for Will and if I did, he would probably just laugh at me. While I was thinking I didn’t see Gabriel had stopped and I walked right into him.

“Are you okay?”

“Yes, I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay, this is the last place and we have 30 minutes left.”

We walked into the store and there were dresses and shoes everywhere. Gabriel began looking through the dresses and he found one and in my size and began looking for a pair of shoes. He went inside a dressing room and hung the dress up and put the shoes on a chair in the dressing room.

“Sara, come here and try these on.”

I went inside the dressing room and saw he had hung something up on the mirror, so I couldn’t see how I looked. Gabriel sat down on a chair outside the dressing room and let me change. I looked at the dress. It was so beautiful and expensive. It was red with some white and a bow on the side. The red dress went well with my light brown hair and I will guess that Gabriel thought about that too. I took the dress and put it on. The high heels were hard to walk in, but they sat perfect on the foot. I walked out of the dressing room.

Chapter 2

Gabriel looked like he was satisfied and smiled. I looked down on the dress and saw how pretty it fit me. It sat tight on the upper body and loosened a little over my waist. Gabriel kept staring and I blushed. This is embarrassing!!!

“Could you stop staring? It’s embarrassing.”

“Sorry, I just thought of how beautiful you are.”

“I’m not beautiful and I’m going to change.”

“Don’t you want to see yourself?”

“I know how I look and that’s stupid.”

Gabriel’s smile disappeared and he stood up. He walked past me and took down the curtain on the mirror. I didn’t turn around, because I knew that I looked like a fool and I just wanted to go home. Gabriel took his hands on my shoulder and turned me around. I looked down at the floor and gave up a fight, so that I didn’t have to see myself. I could see Gabriel wasn’t satisfied with me.

“Why won’t you see yourself? You look beautiful, but you don’t even want to have a look. I think it’s a shame. Get changed and go home I won’t bother you again.”

“Then why did you bring me here?! My life was normal until you showed up!”

I looked up at him and fell right into his trap. My anger disappeared when I saw myself in the mirror. I couldn’t even recognize myself. I stepped closer to the mirror just to make sure it was really was me, I was looking at. I was so pretty that I thought I was controlling someone else’s body. Gabriel looked at me and smiled.

“So, do you look stupid?”

I didn’t know what to answer and just stood there silent. He raised his hand and patted my head. I looked into his eyes and saw his beautiful eye color. He was one to talk. I bet he always had been popular with his looks. He was probably just like Will is now; girls and boys standing in a line just to shake his hand. Gabriel came back and took my hand.

“Come, I have a part-time job offer for you. You earn many cash and then you can pay the hospital bills for your mom easily.”

“But the school doesn’t allow a part-time job…”

“I don’t think they can recognize you even if you meet.”

“I have to work in this getup?”

“It’s not a getup, it’s a pretty dress.”

He said that with a smile and took my hand. We went outside and walked even further down the street while holding hands. Every man was looking at me and this is the first time I’ve felt so embarrassed and shy. Gabriel’s hand was big and warm. I’ve never felt this warmth before. My mom was always in the hospital and every time I took her hand, it was cold like ice. I haven’t thought about it before, but what would my mother say to me, if she finds out I have a part-time job? What if the school finds out and I get expelled?! I stopped in the middle of the road and it gave Gabriel a shock. He turned around and looked at me. I took my hand to me and clenched it.

“What’s wrong? Sara?”

He looked worried, because I was behaving strangely. I looked at him and he became a little restless, like he had done something wrong. I looked back into the ground. I can’t do this. The risk is too high, but what about my mom’s hospital bills? I can pay them off, but then I will only have money left to a little dinner and not anymore. So if I don’t take the job, will I starve to death?
All these questions and problems were running through my head and I couldn’t calm down. I felt a hand caress my cheek. I looked up at Gabriel and saw how worried he looked. What am I doing? I don’t want to cause him problems. I can see if the job is something for me and then decide what to do.

“Sorry, I’m okay now.”

I smiled at him, but the worried look was still on his face and it seemed like it wouldn’t get of his face for a while. I better try to calm him down a little.

“I’m fine. I was just thinking, but I decided I would like to see what this part-time job is about.”

“Okay, but tell me if something is wrong.”

“Okay.”

I smiled and it was a promise. The three hours was already gone, but I was curious about this job as a hostess. I would love to try it. We went into a place where the sign said: “The blue rose.” When we got inside, there was a bar in the middle of the place and tables around the bar. A man came towards us.

“Hey Gabriel, who is she? She is such a beauty.”

“Hey Charlie, this is Sara and I want her to work here, if she agrees.”

“Nice to meet you Sara, I’m Charlie.”

“Nice to meet you too.”

He seemed like a very nice man. He looked like he got shy and blushed. Then he looked at Gabriel and nodded, I didn’t understand what they were doing, but they seemed they understood each other. Gabriel invited me in and I sat down at the bar. I looked around and saw that with every table were there one to three men and one woman. They were talking, smoking and laughing. The men and women began to whisper and look at me. I felt a little uncomfortable and looked down at my hands. Gabriel and Charlie came out from a room in the back of the bar.

“Should we go again Sara?”

“Yes please, I don’t feel comfortable, everyone keep staring at me.”

“They don’t mean anything bad by it, they are just curious about the beautiful girl who is sitting in the bar.”

“Their look doesn’t say that at least not from the women in this place.”

“They are just jealous, because everyone in here is looking at you. Come on, let’s go.”

Gabriel followed me home and said that I could take the job if I wanted, but if I didn’t, I should just call him. He gave me his cellphone number and we parted. I got to keep the dress and some days later did I call him and said that I would like to take the job. That’s half a year ago and now I’m the number one hostess as crazy as it may seem.

Chapter 3

The alarm clock went off and it was 630 am. I was so tired, because I got home late last night. There came a customer at 1 pm and I couldn’t just send him away, so I got home at 2 pm after that I did my homework and went to bed at 230 am.

I stood up and began eating breakfast and after that I took my uniform on and became the dorky and uncool schoolgirl again. I locked the door and went to school. I didn’t even look where I was walking, but I came to school in one piece. There were only five minutes to the class started and I began to run. I ran around the corner and bumped into someone. I lost my glasses and couldn’t find them.

“Here, your glasses.”

I held my hand out and the person I ran into put them in my hand.

“Thank you.”

I looked at the person I ran into and it was… WILL!! Why the hell did it have to be him?! Out of every boy in this school!?

“I’m so sorry! Oh no, I’m gonna be late. Bye.”

He just stood there while I ran away. I got to the classroom and the teacher wasn’t there yet, so I was lucky. I took my seat and collapsed over the table. That was SO embarrassing! I hope he doesn’t think I’m some weirdo… Does it even matter? It’s not like I ever get to talk to him again. The teacher came and everyone stood up and bowed. We all sat down and the class began. I was so tired that I couldn’t even keep my eyes open and I slowly fell asleep.

I woke up by feeling someone staring at me and I looked up. The teacher was standing beside me with an angry look in his eyes. I looked around and the whole class was looking at me with a surprising face. I looked at the teacher again, but that didn’t make him happier.

“Sara, it’s not often you fall asleep in class, but I don’t think it’s appropriate.”

“I’m sorry.”

“Go up to the inspector’s office and tell him what happened, then he gets to find the punishment for your behavior.”

“Okay.”

I left the classroom and began walking to the inspector’s office. I looked out of the window in the hallway, opened a window and got the fresh air in the face. I let my hair down and took my glasses of. I shook my hair in the wind and felt the nice breeze on my neck. I saw someone looking at me from the right and stopped. I put on my glasses and ran till I was at the inspector’s office. But who was that? And why was he staring at me with an open mouth? It doesn’t matter I have to meet the inspector. I took my hair and made a ponytail and put my glasses on, knocked on the door and went inside when a voice said:

“Enter.”

This was the first time I was coming to the inspector’s office. The walls were cream colored, there were two bookcases, a desk and the chair he was sitting in. He looked up.

“Hello girl, what do you want?”

“Øhm… The teacher said I should come here, because I was really tired and fell asleep in class.”

The inspector looked at me with calm eyes.

“I don’t think I have seen you before, what’s your name?”

“My name is Sara and I’m from class 1.C.”

“Oh that’s right. You are the really smart girl in class 1.C, but why were you so tired in class?”

“Øhm… I couldn’t sleep last night after I made my homework.”

“I see. Then there is nothing to do. You can go back to class and try not to fall asleep again. Okay?”

He smiled kindly at me. I bowed and thanked him before going out. I went back to class and told the teacher what he said and then sat down at my seat. The class started again and I didn’t fall asleep again.

The bell rang and school was over. I packed my stuff and went on home. I have to work again today and if I don’t want to fall asleep tonight, I need some sleep. Tomorrow I have to pay my mom’s hospital bills and then visit her after. I hope she is getting better; I looked forward to seeing her. I suddenly got in higher spirit and when I got home, I threw my stuff on the floor and jumped into my bed. Before I fell asleep, I sat my alarm clock to ring at 1630 pm. My eyes shut and I fell into a deep sleep.

Chapter 4:

I was running. There was someone after me. I kept running and running, but the floor ended and there were only a way down. I could see it coming closer and it was hideous. I jumped and hoped nothing was going to happen. The hole was deep, I kept falling and falling. The ground appeared and there was a big pillow. I landed on the pillow and let my beating heart calm down a little. I could see an open door with light. I was curious and stepped inside. Inside was there coming light out and I couldn’t see anything other than the bright light that made me blind.

I went inside and was now in the hospital. It was like the room my mom was lying in at the hospital and I went to the window and looked to the right. Just like always was my mom lying in the bed; sleeping. I kept looking at her, but I felt like something was wrong. Was she breathing? Just after that thought crossed my mind started her pulse to go down and after some time was the pulse gone. I ran to her and took her hand. It was ice cold. I knew I couldn’t do anything to help her. I ran to the door and was going to call for the nurse. When I called I heard someone’s footsteps and stepped back into the room.

I turned around, and a nurse came into the room. She slammed the door behind me and I turned around to look at the nurse. The nurse was looking me in the eyes and she was smiling like a crazy person. She came closer and pulled out a knife form her clothes. She ran forward and I dodged her first attempt to stab me. I could see in her eyes that she was crazy. She had the eyes of a beast. She looked at my mom and for a second I thought that she would stab her. I charged towards her and we both fell to the ground.

“It’s me you want, you bitch. Come get me!”

She didn’t like my comment and ran after me. I made her trip and ran to the door, unlocked it and ran out into the hallway and looked behind me. The nurse was running after me with the creepiest smile I have ever seen. I put up the pace and turned left at the next corner. I didn’t look back. I just ran all I could, like the devil was after me. I looked behind me, but I couldn’t see where she was and I stopped to catch my breath. Did I run away from her? No that couldn’t be true; she was just as fast as me.

Could it be that she went back to my mom?! No, I could see a shadow at the corner. I turned my head and looked right into the crazy nurse’s eyes and screamed. I was so scared. She took the knife and stabbed me in the chest.

I woke up with a scream and was filled with sweat. I looked at the time and there were 20 minutes till I had to get to work… SHIT!!! I jumped up off the bed and checked why my alarm clock didn’t ring. The battery were used and it wasn’t working, I took a quick shower, laid make-up on and I had to put on my dress at home and then there were only 10 minutes left. I could make it if I ran. I stormed out of the apartment and began running. It was really hard in this dress, but the worst thing was the high heels.

I ran through the streets and looked at the time. Five minutes left and I wasn’t even halfway. I looked around to see if I could get some help. There was a boy standing with his motorcycle and I ran towards him and grabbed his shoulders.

“I’m sorry, but could you help me? I’m in a hurry and I’m gonna be late. Will you drive me to “the blue rose” café? Please.”

He looked at me and I saw it was Will. He was looking right at me; he took my hand and gave me a helmet.

“Get on. Boys I will be right back!”

I jumped on and pressed myself into Will’s back. He started and we were on our way, I was so embarrassed, but I didn’t care right now. We arrived right on time and I jumped off after I took my helmet off. I shook my hair and put my wig in place on top of my head.

“Thank you so much and sorry for having you leave your friends back there.”

“It’s okay. Just tell me one thing, what’s your name?”

“My name is Nicole.”

I smiled at him and he blushed. I ran inside and he drove away after some time. I said sorry to the others and began with the first customers. The evening and night went and I was home again. I was lying on the bed and fell asleep, this time without any nightmares.

Chapter 5:

After the day I got help from Will, he began coming to “the blue rose” and ask for me. I wasn’t nervous when talking to him, because I was Nicole. He still didn’t know I was Sara in class 1.C and that was how it was supposed to be. We became really good friends and began seeing each other in the weekends were we went to the amusement park and to dolphin show. We had a really good time together. The only thing that was bad was the more I came to know him, the more I came to love him. I know he only sees me as a friend, but that is good enough for me, even if he didn’t talk or even notice me when I was Sara the dorky girl from class 1.C.

I was waiting in the park for Will. Today we were going to paddle on the lake, just the two of us. There was ten minutes till our meeting time. I walked around a little in the park and as always, all the guys were staring at me and all the girls with guys was glaring at me. Will was supposed to meet me at 14 pm, but now it’s five minutes over and he still isn’t here. I looked around when someone placed his hand on my shoulder and I thought it was Will.

“Will, you are late. Did somet-“

I turned around and saw it wasn’t Will holding my shoulder, but someone else. I don’t know who he is and I had never seen him before. Did he mistake me for someone else?

“Øhm… Excuse me, but who are you?”

“Hey, I’m Travis. Did you get dumped? That is a little hard to think, you’re really pretty.”

“Thank you, but he is just running a little late.”

“Do you want to be with us for some time until your date is here?”

“It isn’t a date. It’s an appointment, we are just friends.”

“Then come with us and have some fun.”

“No thanks. I’m fine, please let me go.”

His grab on my shoulder tightened and I began to struggle, but it didn’t help. I was about to call for help, but a second person came and took his hand in front of my mouth. I couldn’t breathe well and certainly not shout for help. They began pulling me away and I got scared, really scared! What am I going to do?! What do they want with me?!

I got teary and was hoping someone would notice. I tried to struggle again and this time I slammed my elbow into his stomach, he let go and fell to the ground. I wasn’t going to let this chance go to waste and I began yelling as loud as I could.

“HELP!!!! SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!”

It startled Travis, who was holding me and hit me, to shut me up, but I wasn’t giving up that easy. I started to yell on the ground.

“HEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP!!!!!”

Travis kicked me, all the air in my lungs got kicked out and I couldn’t yell anymore. Travis and the other guy were about to take me again and my stomach hurt so much that I couldn’t move even an inch. He grabbed my hand and I thought I’m going to get raped! When, someone yelled to me.

“Hey, what are you doing?! Nicole, are you okay?!”

The last thing I saw was Travis and the other guy running away. Everything went black and I lost consciousness.

* * *

I woke up in a bed, my body was itching everywhere and I couldn’t move a muscle. The door opened and Will came inside the room. He was looking pale and he saw I was awake.

“Nicole! Are you alright?!”

“I’m fine, I just can’t move right now. Don’t worry.”

“This is my fault, if I wasn’t late because of traffic, then I could have helped you! Then this wouldn’t have happened!”

Will looked like he was going to cry. I took my hand and caressed his cheek. He looked surprised and sad at the same time.

“This isn’t your fault; it was Travis and that other guy who did this to me.”

Will’s face switched from sad to angry. I have never seen him like this before and I hope he wouldn’t do anything stupid. Will took my hands and placed then above my head while he moved on top of me. I was surprised and didn’t know how to react. It was the first time I got a little scared of Will.

“WHY DO YOU KNOW HIS NAME?!?!”

I looked surprised at him and didn’t know what to answer. Why was he asking? Is it information to the police or something? Then I better tell the truth…

“He came up behind me, I thought it was you. I asked who he was and he told me.”

“How can you be so defenseless?!?!”

“I’m saying this again, I thought it was you! Why do you want to know so badly?!”

Now I was getting mad! He tightened his grip on my hands and it began to hurt in my ribs and stomach, were Travis had kicked me. Will was really angry now. I could see it on his face, but why was he so angry?! It’s not like I am his girlfriend or anything?! Wait… Girlfriend… Does that mean he is jealous? Naaah… That can’t be right. The pain in my ribs got unbearable and I got teary again.

“Will… It hurts… You are hurting me.”

The tears began running down my face and my breathing got faster. It was like Will snapped out of it again and was a little shocked about his own actions. He loosened he grip and took my arms further down. Most of the pain stopped and my breathing got normal again, but he didn’t let go…

“Will let me go…”

“No…”

He took my head and turned it towards him. He looked me deep in the eye. Is he okay?

“Will, what is wro-“

I didn’t even get to finish that sentence, when Will kissed me on the lips. It was a warm and wet kiss. It made me want more, I got excited and he was the same. An even deeper kiss came and his tongue was circling around mine. It made me lose my breath and my mind went blank. It felt SO good. Will took his other hand and began taking my clothes off and began touching my breasts. It made me even more excited, but this can’t go on. Will doesn’t even know who I am and he will probably not like the real me. This is wrong.

“Will, stop. Stop!”

Will came to his senses again and looked at me. He let go of me and blushed.

“Sorry, I will get you some water.”

He went inside the kitchen and took a glass from the cupboard. He opened for the tap and filled the glass with clear water. I can’t do this, if this keeps on going, he will probably find out my true self and I can’t take that chance. I have to get away from him.

“Will… I can’t see you anymore…”

I looked up and saw Will’s scared face. It was like someone had just told him his father had just died. I couldn’t dare look at him and looked down at my hands.

“Why? I said I was sorry, I won’t do it again; just don’t say we can’t meet up again,”

“This has nothing to do with what you just did and if I didn’t like it I would have pushed you away.”

“Then why?!”

“The person you like is not the real me, you don’t know me.”

“Yes I do! Your name is Nicole, you are 17 years old, you love dogs and you live with your mom without your father.”

“My name isn’t Nicole, it’s made up. It’s my hostess name and I’m 16 years old. Some of the things I told you were true, but the basic weren’t. I’m sorry, but you can never know the real me. Then I would rather die!”

Will was standing like a statue and didn’t say anything. He felt betrayed and I can understand that. I’m so sorry Will. It shouldn’t have gone on this long. I’m so sorry. I stood up as good as I could. I placed my arm on my stomach to ease the pain and then walked towards the door.

“I’m sorry…”

“Wait.”

Will grabbed my hand and turned around, so he could look at my face. When he hit my right cheek and I was stunned. My tears began running down my face again and Will looked like he regretted what he had just done.

“Hit me all you want, I know you have the right to after I betrayed you. No matter what, I still like you.”

Will froze up. I didn’t think he had expected that I liked him. He raised his hand again and I thought he was going to hit me again, so I took my arm up in front of my face and began trembling. I couldn’t feel a hit so I opened my eyes and looked at Will. I had never in my life seen anyone look so sad. Was it only because I lied to him or was it because he didn’t get to hit me?

“I’m sorry. I will stop defending myself and let you hit me. I deserve it, but please not the face. I have to go to work tomorrow.”

I closed my eyes and just stood there. Will let go of my hand and I opened my eyes again. What is he doing? Am I not even worth hitting, so am I just lower than trash now?

“I know I am not even worth hitting. I’m just lower than trash. I have still feeling, but it’s not like you would think about them after what I have done to you. Well it’s not like you care, but I’m still sorry. I’m so sorry.”

The tears wouldn’t stop now. I looked at Will one last time before I ran out of the door while crying my heart out. The last expression Will had was a surprised or a denying expression. I will always remember our time together and hold it dear to me. I will never forget you Will, my first love. I’m happy you even kissed someone like me, that couldn’t I even have dreamt of. I ran through the streets and didn’t stop even once until I was home. I unlocked the door and went inside. I felt sick and it felt like I was going to throw up. I ran into the toilet and threw up everything in my stomach. While throwing up, my ribs hurt like shit, but I didn’t stop until there only was bile coming out.

I leaned up against the wall in the bathroom and couldn’t even flush out. I thought about my life and this is the first time I had felt this bad. I’m a hostess and earn a lot of money, but I couldn’t even get the boy I love to accept me for who I am. My head hurt and pounded. I couldn’t even lift a finger. I looked at my mobile that had fallen out of my pocket. It was 1630 pm and I had to go to work. Even if I thought that nothing was wrong, I couldn’t get up. I don’t know what happened after that, everything went black and I fell down on the floor and lost consciousness.