When I was 14 I got first hand experience with what drugs do to a family. My aunt had been clean from meth since I was about 4 so I'd grown up knowing that yes she is clean and yes she is sober. When I was 12 she mentioned to me that she was smoking weed again. I mentioned it to my mom. It erupted into a bad fight, one that caused 12 year old me to grab a knife from the kitchen because my aunt had her hands around my mom's throat and was squeezing. We ended up sleeping in the middle of the desert that night.
When I turned 13 we got news that my cousins Vallan and Torin had been removed from my aunts care, she was back on meth. My aunt came back swearing to my mother that she was off meth around christmas time. Christmas eve she made the mistake of telling someone that she was using my mother for money for drugs. This erupted in a giant fight. As I grew older I began noticing slight changes in my family pattern. I hadnt talked to Vallan or Torin in a year, two years, three years, and so on. Everytime my aunt popped back into my life it was always started with a "Hey honey i miss you, I love you" and somehow I was trapped. An endless circle of fighting in which I had to hide my siblings.
And this was my life. Always the object my mom and aunt fought for. I wasnt on anyone's side. Eventually though things calmed down.
Now you're probably wondering why im telling you all of this. It's simple. I got a message from my cousin Vallan, tonight he messaged me. 11/5/16. And I cried on video chat. He's so big now. 17 years old and 6'2. He's taller than me and his voice got deep. I cant believe that ive missed his entire life. And I'm the closest thing to a big sister he has. He turns 18 soon and will no longer be a ward of the state. My new apartment has two rooms. Im gonna do my best to get his brother into my custody too. If I ever hear from my aunt again I will tear her to shreds. I lost my cousins for too long and I missed too much. She tore my family away because she only wants meth.
This is the saga of my life and it's only going up