Little girl.
Eyes bright and searching.
Looking for acceptance.
Looking for a mother's love.
Little girl is rejected.
Tears.
Sadness.
Fury boils inside me.
Sadness numbs emotion.
Three little words don't exist.
Given up on her.
Given up on acceptance.
Given up on her pride in me.
Given up on her love.
Given up on trying.
She hates me.
She is disappointed in me.
She doesn't love me.
Numbs feeling in my body.
My mind.
My life.
My soul.
Became a rebel.
Getting in trouble.
Getting drunk.
Getting angry.
Getting her angry.
Seeking a mother's love.
Search is useless.
She hates me.
She is moving on.
Waiting to bring new life into the world.
Test in her purse.
Positive or negative.
Pink or blue.
Baby boy or girl.
New life will destroy mine.
No future between me and her.
Anger will rise.
Rebellion will increase.
Hatred will boil.
Sadness will explode.
Heart will cease to exist.
No love found.
No pride found.
Just hate.
Just disappointment.
She's moved on.
Wants to let go of me.
And start a-new with a baby boy or girl.
Father of her new child is no father of mine.
Never will be.
Never should be.
He'll live here permanently.
I'll see him eternally.
Don't want him here.
He's not my dad.
Where's my dad?
Dad is drinking.
Smoking.
Regretting.
Miserable.
Dying inside.
Heart goes numb.
Feelings cease.
Hatred and anger explodes.
Sadness numbs me.
Love is gone.
Replaced by disappointment.
By hatred.
Emptiness.
Misery.
Inside death.
Me.
Unsure.
Confused.
Searching for the next step.
Can I move on?
Without a mother's love?
No pride.
No mother.
No me.
Lonely.
Misunderstood.
Short tempered.
No motherly love.
Treated as a child.
Treated unfairly.
Going insane.
Going angry.
Going sad.
No love.
No me.
I'll rebel.
I'll be stubborn.
I'll give up.
I'll act childish.
Grow up bitter.
Grow up unloved.
Misunderstood.
Must concentrate on school.
Friends.
Drinking to numb the pain and sadness.
Drink to forget.
Drink to celebrate.
Drink to entice.
Waiting for the moment when everything is all right.
When everything is normal.
When I am happy.
When I find my mother's love.
Never found.
Lost little girl.
Angry.
Unloved.
Rebellious.
Stubborn.
Tomboy.
Mischievous.
Party girl.
Crazy girl.
Bad girl.
Troubled girl.
Sad girl.
Angry girl.
Me.
Keep moving on.
Don't give up on life.
Give up on mother's love.
Don't need it.
Don't become bitter and spiteful.
Don't become a Scrooge.
You're not alone.
Many are lost.
Many don't find a mother's love.
Many don't need it.
Many let it affect them.
Many grow up in prison.
Pregnant.
Low-lifes.
Thugs.
Thieves.
Troublemakers.
Miserable.
In trouble.
Hopeless.
In dire need of help.
No where to turn to.
No mother's love.
Will this be me?
Damned to a miserable life?
Nope.
I will work hard.
Get married.
Find love from my family.
From my father.
Big mistake.
Her fault.
Doesn't know me.
Never wanted to.
Her mistake.
Never will.
Goodbye.
Goodbye mother.
Goodbye mother's love.
Goodbye disappointment.
Hatred.
Neglect.
Goodbye you.
Goodbye.
Forever.
Goodbye.
