Warning: This work has been rated 18+ for language.
Hello again. Kazumi here.
We're back at it again with the 2am vibes. Or more like, 1:08 am vibes. Or whatever time it is. You see, I'm writing on a program called Cold Turkey Writer, and what it does is it essentially turns your computer into a typewriter. No quitting the program until you reach this certain word count or have been writing for x amount of time. Pretty wonderful.
So, what are we doing tonight once again? It's what we call self-reflection.
I don't want to call it diary entries. I don't want to call it journaling either. The former makes me look like a 14-year-old upper class blonde girl bitching about how her crush didn't look her way today in science class, and the latter makes this looks like an exercise I took from some self-proclaimed self-help guru who invades my YouTube videos every 2 minutes, selling his shitty happy seminar that I have no interest in. I don't identify with such Hollywood trope girls, and I don't identify with self-help gurus (at least not too much).
Self-reflection is particularly important. You know, we don't get a lot of alone time, you feel? We go to school or work, we come home, we talk to our family. And even when we are alone, we don't get to think about the questions that really matter because we're either curating our next Instagram posts or engaging with a YouTube video. Social media management and entertainment aren't evil things, but you do have to think about those important questions sometimes.
No shit, you may be thinking. Yeah, no fucking shit, Sherlock. We all know we need reflection, you fucking dork. The thing is, though we know it at the back of our heads, we forget about reflection in the hustle and bustle of daily life, and so we forget about its benefits. Or maybe we have never really reflected before, as in, really reflected. Perhaps that's why we don't know its benefits, and perhaps that's why we aren't inclined to continuously engage in it.
Hell, I have to reflect about self-reflection in order to remind myself about self-reflection's benefits!
So, why am I reflecting? It's not very complicated. I would like to take control of my life again.
You know, when things are spinning around and you need to anchor yourself, no shit you need a little time and a little space to set that anchor down where it needs to be.
We never really get bored these days. The human lives in perpetual fear of boredom, but that monster has been vanquished now. Social media and the capitalist society make sure we never get bored. It always makes sure we always take in these things so we're constantly entertained. But sometimes, you do have to stop taking these things of theirs.
Because if you keep taking these things in, you won't have time to think about the things that you already have in your mind, things that are perhaps very, very important to you.
I'm Kazumi and this was my self-reflection on self-reflection. I'll start reflecting on very important things tomorrow. Good night.